I have to believe in my self

I know I have many good capabilities. But I never challenge this with anyone. I never thought I am the best in it. I always thing there are always possibilities to upgrade myself and there could be other who are better than me. But I don’t take any leading position by myself, coz I wanted to give chance to others. And most of the time I found, I were the better skilled person. But I never regret for this attitude. I took only those responsibilities which are given to me. May be I have to believe in myself little more, to give better service to other. I know I can do it.

Is solar system costly?

In Bangladesh all people are suffering less supply of power. All had to stay without power for hours every day. This is not tolerable in this hot and humid weather. So people are expending a lot of money to buy generation (different kind of like fuel, gas, automatic etc), ISP etc. Which is also grows more fuel and power consumption. But if people could use solar power then they only had to expend money for set up…..

Broken cab in road

In Bangladesh most of the black cabs are Maruti Suzuki. It seems very light and little cheap. But after few months we all saw the terrible condition of these cars. Most of them ( I didn’t see any good one) are broken, glass can’t be up and down, broken door lock, missing parts, poor body condition etc. I thought these cars are not good. They can’t stay good condition.

In Kathmandu, Nepal again we see cabs which are also Maruti Suzuki. But they are all in good condition. Now I think it’s actually drivers and car owner’s responsibility to drive safe and keep the car in good maintenance. But here they don’t care, that’s why same car in poor condition.

Can’t tolerate pain anymore

I am taking rest at home coz of sickness. But sometimes pain increase too much that I can’t tolerate any more. I wish I could sleep 24 hours so that I don’t have to feel this pain. That’s not possible. Generally pain increase at day time. So I had to stay in bed sometimes sleeping, sometimes watching TV to forget pain. But my surroundings are not happy with that. They might thinking that I shouldn’t take rest in bed this way but should move or do work. But if this wasn’t impossible for me, I wouldn’t have take leave from office and wouldn’t admit in clinic 2 times. The only thing I am doing is ignoring their attitude. Leaving happy as much as possible.

Can you do a favor for me?

Generally whenever I stay in front of computer, I tried to stay on messenger. That brings me both good and bad impression. For example of a bad thing is every now and then some unknown person knocking me. It’s difficult to communicate with everyone always. That’s why I found a filter option…..

Whenever anyone knock me I asked them “Can you do a favor for me ?”. IF they say, yes (If you like to chat with me like friend then should be able to help me like a friend) then request them “Please visit http://shahanaus.blogspot.com and click on any Google ad”. If they agree then I continue chatting or just ignore them.

When you can’t move your hand

People feel good, when anyone do any work for them. But If you are incapable to do any work, and you had to take help that’s really very poor feeling. Due to my pregnancy I am facing several problems. Like my fingers becoming sense less. I can’t do much work with hands. Otherwise it starts paining. So I had to take all’s help to do work for me. Like cooking and other things. And this is really not enjoyable.

Sleeping problem at night

I always liked day time sleeping. But due to job it became impossible. Now taking rest according to doctor’s suggestion. Most of the times I had to stay in bed at day time coz of sickness. That’s makes I fall in sleep at day sometimes…. Which might causes no sleep at night. Then it’s difficult is pass time at night. Sometimes I read book, sometimes watch TV, sometimes check mails and write blog. Cozes at day were not feeling good to sit in front of computer.

Dimension in relation

You never know how many dimension or kind of relation you can have. You have some relation which you never can give a name. You don’t know but feel there is a relation. Every known relation has some expectation, which differs person to person, time to time.

How to eat food in Bangladesh

Though Bangladeshi people think they are happy (more or less) and honest people, I think this doesn’t goes for the Bangladeshi business man’s at all. Especially who are involved in food business? Even who are in very route level, who supplies fruits and vegetables. Most of the food which produced in the factory is using wasted materials, dangerous chemicals, and harmful things. Like in cake, bread, biscuit, wheat, baby food, sweets etc. They are producing those in dirty place, with dirty hand. People mixing unhygienic chemicals in the fruits, vegetable, fish to make it look better, but which causes very bad impact with the human body. People bringing foreign biscuit, chocolate, juice etc which expire date is over, then by changing the date they sale it in Bangladesh. They don’t care what will happen with people who are eating it. You can see no humanity in them. But what will you do? What will you eat? How will you survive?

If government people make charge (very small amount) they give that (may be) then again continue in same way. They don’t afraid of law people. They don’t need to care about them (may be law isn’t strong enough to stop them) they are just doing whatever bring them money. And nothing is there to stop them.

Good place in bad mood

When you are somehow dishearten, what will you do? Generally people want to stay quite in a place where they like to stay. In my current physical condition I can’t move anywhere anytime. So, blog can be a place where online I can stay and spend some time.

Decision in home or corporate

Making decisions at home and making decisions at corporate are different. In office or outside from home you know, things are going to happen in outside, if you are wrong then you might feel bad, but you won’t be mentally disturbed like the mistake you make at home. They are your people who will blame you for your wrong decision. They won’t be polite, well-behaved like outside. They won’t think how you will feel if they start blaming you everywhere, especially if they are from your in-law family. We better try to escape to give an opinion at your in-laws, but it is impossible to avoid every time.

Bad comment on others

I don’t want to make any bad comment or statement on others. No matter how true they are. I feel bad if I had to say bad about anyone. But still sometimes when you are explaining about something or some situation, sometimes bad comment comes automatically if you had any hard feeling.