Thursday, August 31, 2023

Biography 191: My 2nd journey to Cox's Bazaar (journey)

I and Shumi were standing at the Hotel, in Cox's Bazaar.

 We were in the honours third year at the University of Dhaka. Our field trip decided to go to Cox's Bazar and Teknaaf (The southeast district of Bangladesh). Our professor, Mr. Baki and another professor (I forgot his name) were with us. Mr. Baki's daughter also joined us on this field trip.

Our professor said we would train from Dhaka to Chittagong, then take a bus from Chittagong and go to Cox's Bazaar. In those days, the Dhaka to Cox's Bazaar coach service was newly started. So, Saleh said, why don't we go to Cox's Bazaar directly. Why would we take pain to change the train with luggage? Our professor said girls have some specific needs, so we won't make this long single journey. Saleh stopped.

 He thought what could be a reason. I am a girl, even I was thinking, what could be the reason? Later, Saleh burst on us by saying, I am a boy; I couldn't say anything, why you girls didn't say anything. Well, we were confused, too. And didn't want to make any uncomfortable discussion.

We enjoyed the train journey. The bus couldn't give us this many fun times. On the train, we drank tea several times. Sometimes, others join us, too. Shumi asked if we should pay for all or just for our drinks. I said, let's for us only. We all students can't have the luxury of paying for everything. Saleh didn't like that. He paid for all (Once) and asked the tea seller to return Shumi's money. I knew he tried to make us feel bad. Well, I didn't mind, as long as you pay for me. So, I asked Shumi to enjoy it and not think too much about it. I still believe we made the right decision.

In the Hotel, Shumi and I stayed on the 3rd floor. Sometimes, boys tried to take the power plug off from outside to make us scared. I didn't bother. I just came out and fixed it and again went inside. They understood this one is not going to make us feel anything.


Wednesday, August 30, 2023

Why do women leave men when they have money.


 Why do some women choose to end their relationships with men who have a lot of money?

I knew some families wanted their wives, less educated and non-working. Non-working doesn't mean they don't have to work, it means they have to work at home full-time, not outside. Non-working means no earning. 

No earnings doesn't mean they can't bring money at home; it means, they can't spend time or energy outside to earn money. They can bring money from their home, parents or wealth.

What's the problem if she has the qualities to earn money? Thinking is, that she might not stay with her husband. 

So, you think, she needs money, that's why she married and stayed with a husband? Can't her family feed her? Or can't she earn her own expenses? Then, after marriage, you have to cut off her money and make her stay with you? Couldn't you give her any other reason to stay with you? Love, respect, care, support, good feelings, nothing?

You won't give anything, only take all her attention, her body, labour, creating and raising your child by her and will also cut off her wings so that she can't fly and find a suitable place to live. More over you will dishonour her by saying she doesn't do anything (Which means not earning money), and she has to live without saying anything, just listening to all the orders from you and your family. No matter how humiliated she felt, how much hard she needed to do, not having good food and rest.

And then you will say money is the only reason to break a family when a woman tries to get out of a humiliated living space?

If you loved women, you would have let her live how she wanted to. And enjoy her company and her love the way she tried to give you.

If she wants to leave you, let her go. Help her to stay safe wherever she wants. Be a man. If she doesn't want to live with you or love you, let her be. Treat her as a human, not like your pet. Respect her and her decision. Fine, someone who wants to stay with you.

Tuesday, August 29, 2023

Everybody likes this song

 

SONG: As Long as You Love Me

ARTIST: Backstreet Boys

WRITERS: Max Martin

Lyrics:

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine

I'm leavin' my life in your hands

People say I'm crazy and that I am blind

Risking it all in a glance

And how you got me blind is still a mystery

I can't get you out of my head

Don't care what is written in your history

As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are

Where you're from

What you did

As long as you love me

Who you are

Where you're from

Don't care what you did

As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done

Feels like it's deep within me

Doesn't really matter if you're on the run

It seems like we're meant to be

I don't care who you are (who you are)

Where you're from (where you're from)

What you did

As long as you love me (I don't know)

Who you are (who you are)

Where you're from (where you're from)

Don't care what you did

As long as you love me (yeah)

As long as you love me

As long as you love me

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows

But I guess it shows

When you look into my eyes

What you did and where you're comin' from

I don't care, as long as you love me, baby

I don't care who you are (who you are)

Where you're from (where you're from)

What you did

As long as you love me (as long as you love me)

Who you are (who you are)

Where you're from (where you're from)

Don't care what you did (yeah)

As long as you love me (as long as you love me)

Who you are (who you are)

Where you're from

What you did

As long as you love me

Who you are (who you are)

Where you're from (where you're from)

As long as you love me

Who you are

As long as you love me

What you did (I don't care)

As long as you love me

Source: LyricFind

Monday, August 28, 2023

You are stronger than you think



"You survived many days that you thought wouldn't pass."

Sometimes we gave up. We thought there was no way that I could make it happen. But always believe in yourself. If you look back, many things happened in your life, many things you have achieved that you thought you would never have.

Sunday, August 27, 2023

Beautiful song

 Watch the lyrics with the English Translation:


Title: Sun Saathiya

Movie: Disney's ABCD 2

Music Composer: Sachin – Jigar

Lyrics: Priya Saraiya

Singers: Priya Saraiya, Divya Kumar.

Lyrics:


Ho.. Sun Saathiya Maahiya

Barsa De Ishqa Ki Syahiyaan


Rang Jaaun, Rang Rang Jaaun Ri, Haari Main

Tujhpe Main Jhar Jhar Jhar Jaaun


Hoon Piya Bas Teri Main

Ho Chhu Le Toh Khari Main

(Toh Khari Main Khari Main…)


Main Ret Si, Boond Ka Zariya Tu

Paa Ke Tujhe Bheeg Jaaun Re

Main Ret Si, Boond Ka Zariya Tu

Paa Ke Tujhe Bheeg Jaaun Ri


Tar Jaaun Tar Tar Jaaun

Dariya Ye Tar Jaaun Jee

Ishq Ye Paake Main Tera

Nikhar Jaaun Ri…

Piya Bas Teri Main

Ho.. Chhu Le Toh Khari Main

Toh Khari Main Khari Main…


Sun Saathiya Maahiya

Barsa De Ishqa Ki Syahiyaan.

Source: https://youtu.be/TGpG56pg3UU?si=B_5I-avk3o2wxtyd

Saturday, August 26, 2023

Biography 190: Rosher Pitha (Bangladeshi Dessert)

Source: https://youtu.be/1Ruu-dZCpoM?si=PQ0CQTUiUvspMz4D

 Rosher Pitha (খেজুরের রসের পুলি পিঠা) is a Bangladeshi dessert. After the fall, in winter, women used to make this dessert. Because in the fall, all crops, especially rice, had been taken out from the field. So, at home, plenty of rice is available in winter. Women used to make rice dumplings with fried sweet coconut and put it in a sweet soup. Which consists of date syrup, milk, coconut, etc. They keep the dumplings inside the soup for a night, and in the morning, it tastes like heaven.

Let's come to the main story. When I was visiting my youngest uncle's home in Cox's Bazaar, one night, my aunt decided to make rosher pitha. At night I also helped her to make a huge amount of dumplings, which she put in the sweet sauce for the night.

The next day, we went to Bandorban (that's another story), and after one night's stay, when we returned, we found all pitha had finished. My aunt couldn't understand how 2 people my cousin and his friend, finished all in one day. Later she got to know that they invited more people to join them to finish the pitha. So, my bad luck that I couldn't taste that pitha. After that, no one made me anything like that, nor did I try to make it. Just never had that dessert anymore.

Friday, August 25, 2023

Tolerating everything without any complaint

 Waiting for a doctor, even when you have an appointment, gives you mental stress. Every time you buy regular medication again, you must wait for the doctor's sign for hours, putting you in intolerable pain. Still, the shake of a Bangladeshi doctor tolerates everything without any complaints.

Actually, I tolerate everything without any complaint.

Today, I have agreed to give $250 to the landlord to clean my house.

Trying to live in peace as much as possible.

Thursday, August 24, 2023

I like its melody

 

SONG: Sayonee
ARTIST: Junoon
ALBUM: Sufiana Ishq!

Lyrics with English translation:

O sayonee (x2) [O soulmate ... soulmate]
Chain ek pal nahin (x3) [I'm not at peace even for a moment]
Aur koi hal nahin [And there's no solution to that]
O sayonee (x2)

Kon mode muhar (x3) [Who will turn the goldcoin]
Koi sawan nahin [As there's no jeweller to do that]
Chain ek pal nahi (x3)
Aur koi hal nahin
O sayonee (x2)

Kya bashar ki bisat (x3) [What is a man's worth]
Aaj hai kal nahin [As today he's there and not tomorrow]
Chain ek pal nahin (x3)
Aur koi hal nahin
O sayonee (x2)

Chod meri khata (x2) [Let's not talk about my mistake]
Too to pagal nahin [As you're not a crazy person]
Heyyyyyyy
Chain ek pal nahin (x3)
Aur koi hal nahin
O sayonee
O sayonee
O sayonee O sayonee......



Wednesday, August 23, 2023

As long as you are moving.



Whichever works for you as long as you are moving.

I heard somewhere if you can't run, walk. But keep moving. We face much trouble in our life. It's not a shame that we fall, or get hurt. But as long as you get up and keep moving, it's ok.

Just don't let anything stop you. Life is more beautiful than you can ever imagine. Keep moving. Help others; if you can't, at least give them a smile. Even that can make someone's time better.

Tuesday, August 22, 2023

Beautiful version of DESPACITO

 


Original singer Luis Fonsi (Puerto Rican singer)

Meaning in English:

“Despacito” feat. Daddy Yankee

Yes, you know that I’ve been looking at you for a long time
I must dance with you today (DY)

[Daddy Yankee]
I saw that the look in your eyes was calling me
Show me the path that I will take (Oh)

[Luis Fonsi]
You, you’re the magnet and I’m the metal
I am getting closer and making a plan
Simply thinking about it makes my heart race (Oh yeah)

[Daddy Yankee]
Now, I’m already liking it more than usual
All of my senses are asking for more
We cannot do this in a rush

[Luis Fonsi]
Slowly
I want to breathe in your neck slowly
Let me murmur things in your ear
So that you remember if you’re not with me
Slowly
I want to undress you in kisses slowly
Firmly in the walls of your labyrinth
And of your body, I want to create a manuscript
Up, up
Up, up, up
I want to see your hair dance
I want to be your rhythm
Want you to show my mouth
Your favorite places (Favorite, favorite baby)
Let me trespass your danger zones
Until I make you scream
And you forget your last name

[Daddy Yankee]
If I ask for a kiss come give it to me
I know that you’re thinking about it
I’ve been trying to do it for awhile
Mami, this is giving and giving it to you
You know that with me your heart goes bom bom
You know that from me that babe is looking for a bom bom
Come try my mouth and see if you like its taste
I want to see how much love fits in you
I’m not in a rush I want to experience this trip
Let’s start slowly, then savagely
Step by step, soft then softly
We come up against each other, little by little
When you kiss me in that state of distress
I see that you are malice and delicacy
Step by step, soft then softly
We come up against each other, little by little
And it’s just that your beauty is a puzzle
But to finish it here I have the missing piece

[Luis Fonsi]
Slowly
I want to breathe in your neck slowly
Let me murmur things in your ear
So that you remember if you’re not with me
Slowly
I want to undress you in kisses slowly
Firmly in the walls of your labyrinth
And of your body, I want to create a manuscript
Up, up, up, up
I want to see your hair dance
I want to be your rhythm
Want you to show my mouth
Your favorite places (Favorite, favorite baby)
Let me trespass your danger zones
Until I make you scream
And you forget your last name
Slowly
We’re gonna do it on a beach in Puerto Rico
Until the waves scream Oh Lord
So that my seal stays with you

[Daddy Yankee]
Step by step, soft then softly
We come up against each other, little by little

[Luis Fonsi]
I want you to show my mouth
Your favorite places (Favorite, favorite baby)

[Daddy Yankee]

Step by step, soft then softly
We come up against each other, little by little

[Luis Fonsi]
Until I make you scream
And you forget your last name
Slowly.

Monday, August 21, 2023

Biography 189: My first tour to Cox's Bazaar (The sea beach)

Shekha, our father and I, beside the Red Sea.

 One day, my uncle took us to watch (he literally meant it) the sea. My cousin Ranku Bhai didn't join. His friend, uncle, aunt and their two sons take a bus to Cox's Bazaar.

When we arrived at the sea, my uncle expected me to be surprised. First of all, this is not the first sea I watch. I have seen the Red Sea before. I was surprised by watching the wave. Red sea water is crystal clear and has almost no waves, almost. Here, the water is complete with sand, and the water current is very high.

I wanted to go to the sea, but my uncle stopped me. He said, you can only get wet your feet; that's it. I can't take more risk. If anything happens to you, then what will I explain to Bubu (Sister, my mom)? I couldn't understand then what I should do.

After some moments, my aunt came as a rescuer. She said to me, go to the water and enjoy as much as you want. I will handle your uncle. You arrived here after a long journey and don't know when you will return.

I smiled and went to the water. I didn't go deep water, as I don't know swimming and can't handle the big waves. I saw my uncle and aunt arguing, then my uncle kept walking with me on the sand. Just keep following me as I was walking inside the water.

Later my aunt captured a starfish, she wanted to take home and put in an aquarium, but we didn't succeed. Uncle told her not to jump, laughing with me too much. No woman is doing like her, so she should be more conservative. I didn't like this, but my aunt stopped playing with me.

We take lunch and taste the local food. It taste's great.

We sat on the sand to see the sunset. It was amazing.

After the sunset, we came back by bus to my uncle's home. My cousin stayed alone at home the whole day with an angry face.


Sunday, August 20, 2023

A south song

Although I could not comprehend the lyrics, I thoroughly enjoyed the melody.



You can sing along with "Kaavaalaa" [Source: https://youtu.be/RVLNBVK8auM ]

Raa yaen raavellam laang aavudhey
Robbery-ku raa ve raa ve

Raa nee paathale theeyaavudhey
Thee pidikka ravaiyya ve

Machhatha Moracha
Achatha korachha 
Ichhatha marachhaa
Michham illamaa

Machhame nuvvaiya
Achamey ledhaiyya
Ichhame nenaiya
Micham yemaiyya 

Vaa nu kaavalaiiya
Nu kaavala 
Ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra

Vaa nu kaavalaiyya
Nu kaavala
Ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra 

Pathhika vekkum bodhaiyya
Yeppa yeppappa

Kannukula nee seidhi sollen pa
Sikkika vekkum aasaiyya
Vandhaye yappa

Thangathula than thechhukoyen pa

Konjam thayangaadha pa
Konjam adanga venaam pa

Romba mayangaadha pa
Thappappa thappappa

Konjam paatu kavala 
Konjam dance-u kavala

Rendum onnakagave kavala kavala 

Vaa nu kaavalaiyya 
Nu kaavala 
Ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra 

Vaa nu kaavalaiyya 
Nu kaavala 
Ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra!!!!!!!!

Friday, August 18, 2023

Government earnings.

Governments rely heavily on taxes as a source of revenue, but it's essential to consider the impact on citizens. To ensure a diverse income stream, governments should explore alternative revenue sources such as building factories, export - import goods, restaurants, tourist attractions, and other services that cater to those who can afford them. This generates income for the government and allows them to reinvest in public services and infrastructure for the benefit of all citizens.

By implementing this approach, numerous individuals will also be able to secure employment.

Thursday, August 17, 2023

Nice version of the "Shape of you"

 

Lyrics:

The club isn't the best place to find a lover
So the bar is where I go
Me and my friends at the table doing shots
Drinking fast and then we talk slow
Come over and start up a conversation with just me
And trust me I'll give it a chance now
Take my hand, stop, put Van the Man on the jukebox
And then we start to dance, and now I'm singing like
Girl, you know I want your love
Your love was handmade for somebody like me
Come on now, follow my lead
I may be crazy, don't mind me
Say, boy, let's not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me
Come on now, follow my lead
Come, come on now, follow my lead
I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
Last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
(Oh-I-oh-I-oh-I-oh-I)
I'm in love with your body
(Oh-I-oh-I-oh-I-oh-I)
I'm in love with your body
(Oh-I-oh-I-oh-I-oh-I)
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you
One week in we let the story begin
We're going out on our first date
You and me are thrifty, so go all you can eat
Fill up your bag and I fill up a plate
We talk for hours and hours about the sweet and the sour
And how your family is doing okay
And leave and get in a taxi, then kiss in the backseat
Tell the driver make the radio play, and I'm singing like
Girl, you know I want your love
Your love was handmade for somebody like me
Come on now, follow my lead
I may be crazy, don't mind me
Say, boy, let's not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me
Come on now, follow my lead
Come, come on now, follow my lead
I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
Last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
(Oh-I-oh-I-oh-I-oh-I)
I'm in love with your body
(Oh-I-oh-I-oh-I-oh-I)
I'm in love with your body
(Oh-I-oh-I-oh-I-oh-I)
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
Last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on (I'm in love with your body), be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on (I'm in love with your body), be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on (I'm in love with your body), be my baby, come on
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Edward Christopher Sheeran / John McDaid / Kandi L. Burruss / Kevin Jerome Briggs / Steve Mac / Tameka D. Cottle
Shape of You lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Spirit Music Group, Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner Chappell Music, Inc

Wednesday, August 16, 2023

A gift on the Chinese New Year

Received a present during Chinese New Year.

Our manager was of Asian descent, and although I wasn't certain of their specific country of origin, I recall hearing them speak Mandarin. On the occasion of Chinese New Year, we were each given a lovely envelope. Inside, I found $5--not a significant sum, but the gesture truly brightened my day. I'm always appreciative of thoughtful gifts.

Tuesday, August 15, 2023

Biography 188: to avoid ghosts


I used to read books (Non-academic) from very childhood. In those days, I read some old traditional fiction books, like "Thakurmar's Jhuli," "And Thakur Dadar Jhuli." Most of those stories are about Kings or princesses. There are some ghost stories too.

In one story, it said, there were ghosts everywhere in the village. One person gets out from there somehow by saying this:

 "ভুত আমার পুত/ bhut amar put , 

শাকচুন্নি ঝি/ Shakchunni jhee, 

বুকে আছে রাম লক্ষন/ Buke achhe ram lokkhon,

করবি আমার কি./ Korbi amar ki"

In Bangla, it is called, "Mantra" to avoid ghosts. I was in grade 2. I believed it. I memorized it as a solution to get rid of ghosts. Never used it. Among many, this was a misbelieve from my childhood.


Monday, August 14, 2023

Sunday, August 13, 2023

At least, I tried.


 4 months is quite a long time to achieve any short-term goal. My goal was to do some pending tasks I had planned after coming to Canada. But I was working all the time, so I needed more time. So, this year I took a break. I needed to give myself some time to take a break. Break from work or study, so I can concentrate on other parts of my life. 


In some matters, I could complete my plan; in most cases, I couldn't. The only destruction was me. So, many things were running in my mind, making things more complex for my mind and body. So, I stopped, take a pause. Now again started getting the speed. I don't know how far I will be able to go, but I will try. At least I tried.

Saturday, August 12, 2023

You just need to move on



The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step… Lao Tzu

In life, we can face so many things. Sometimes we fall and don't find any way to get up and move on. Sometimes we feel we need to do something about a matter, but because of many issues, that has never been done.

No matter how big and tough your journey is, it will never be done if you do not start. So, just need to move on; let's start with one step.

Look at the real-life situation. One man single handed cut a hill and made a path. He kept going from one step to another.

Friday, August 11, 2023

Biography 187: My first tour to Cox's Bazaar (aunt's great activities)

 My aunt's nickname is "Khuki" (Which means a small cute kid). I met her when I was very young. I found her a beautiful lady with big eyes and an amazing smile. The best thing she has is her speaking quality. She can become friends with anyone. My uncle is the youngest son of my grandfather (Maternal), so I have seen my aunt very humble with all older people.

I have seen her another role after visiting her home in Cox's Bazaar. She made the house very simple and pleasant. She cooks delicious food for all. She manages her two kids, and later they have one daughter too. I have seen how she cared for everyone, including me. She monitored every person's choices and food habits and prepared food according to that information.

She bought fresh food ingredients for us. Every day she made different traditional kinds of food for us and at the end, she prepared traditional festival food (Like polao, korma, salad and more). She made "Pitha" (traditional Bangladeshi cake) for us too.

I was there for a week, and during this time, cold relations continued between my uncle and cousin. My cousin later showed his anger toward me too. My aunt always talked with everyone, including my cousin and his friend, to minimize the problem; things improved but never vanished.

Later when my aunt met with my mother, she said many good things about me to my mother, like how I behaved with all and helped my aunt with her work etc. I found this is an outstanding quality in her too.

In our country, traditionally, sisters don't like their brother's wife. My mom followed that tradition always. But I always felt my aunt is a great woman. I tried to learn a lot from her. Especially the way she handled the guest and later spoke about them to others.

Thursday, August 10, 2023

All schools should have AC


All schools should have air conditioning. In the hot weather, we think about ourselves; that's why we put AC in homes, offices and other workplaces. We think about aged people too, so we install AC in old homes. But what about kids? They are tiny, and can't talk for themselves to the authority that doesn't mean whole day they have to stay in a place where AC isn't available. Especially those attending classes on the top floors, do you know what trouble they face?

Wednesday, August 9, 2023

Vaccine for Covid-19

After taking 1st booster shot.

This picture was taken in Walmart Pharmacy. After taking the vaccine, I waited 15 minutes in their given area. To be sure, there are no immediate side effects.

I go to Walmart to shop regularly. Because the price is better and availability of different kinds of products. I heard some customers saying if they bring cars, people will buy from here too because those will in less price than others.

It's easy to take any vaccine from Walmart Pharmacy. I booked online and then went there on time. There was no line for the walk-in vaccine.

My mom had completed her four years nursing degree. She practiced for several years in Bangladesh and Saudi Arabia. Because of her, I knew the vaccine and how it worked.

That's why I never hesitated to take the vaccine as much as they are instructed to take from the health department.

Tuesday, August 8, 2023

Biography 186: My first tour to Cox's Bazaar (childhood activities of my cousins)

Here Shafeen brought some snow inside the house.

 I have seen some childhood activities of my cousins in that house. They are living in South Africa now. Got married and settled down.

When I went to their house, both cousins were in elementary school. They were doing excellent results in school on those days. All credit goes to my aunt. I have seen how patiently she used to sit with them and help them to study.

Tonoy is the older son. He used to give me company all of the time. He said he can sing well. I showed him dance in a contract that he would sing a song for me. But after my dance, he decided not to sing.

His younger brother is Tonmoy. Most of the time, he runs away from me whenever I try to talk with him. But always followed me from a distance. Just keep smiling at me. My aunt's first duty is to check his pockets when he falls asleep. He kept his whole world in his pockets, like toys, marbles, fruits like oranges, wires, etc. My aunt showed me that he broke the cupboard net to take out malta (fruit). He used to play outside and come home with a whole body of dust. My aunt first took him to the shower and let him go to the bedroom.

Monday, August 7, 2023

After my death

 When I found out a friend had died, thoughts about death came to my mind seriously. What will happen after my death to my son, how he will manage everything, etc. Though I have no control over any of it. Just trying to make things easy for my son.

He is still very young to understand my words. Maybe he will never understand his mother. I just tried to prepare him as much as I could. I can try, and I am doing that as efficiently as possible.

People who know me, I can only tell you. Please be helpful with him, help him to grow or live as he wants. If you ever liked me for a moment.

Sunday, August 6, 2023

Blue Eye Test.



Jane Elliott “Blue Eyes - Brown Eyes” Experiment Anti-Racism I recommend watching the test. This explains many things: Blue Eye Test. I also like the way she explained to the children and show us the reality.


Saturday, August 5, 2023

Biography 185: My first tour to Cox's Bazaar (Uncle's home)

 My uncle rented a house in a village near Cox's Bazar City. From the bus, we took rickshaws to that house. From the main road, we went inside the village on a narrow road. We passed a village market also on our way. Then we stopped at a place. Then we had to walk through a jungle (it looks like) for a few minutes to reach the house. It was a one-storied concert house, but the roof was made of tin shed. There were little open spaces at the front and a backyard too. Later my cousin drew a selfie on the soil of that front open space. I didn't have a camera or cell phone to capture it. The doors and windows were made of wood.

I am trying to explain in detail the house because I liked it. After reaching home, was walking around and talking with my uncle's two tiny sons, Tonoy and Tonmoy. My aunt became very busy preparing food for these unannounced guests. But she seems kind of used to this situation. My uncle bought some mattresses for the guests.

My uncle was really surprised by me. He said the way you were throwing out, I thought you would lay down on the bed.

Later, when we returned to Dhaka, my brothers sat in another place, not beside me ;). They scared. Though I became an expert in handling myself on the bus so things didn't get nasty.

Here I met with Tomony and Tonmoy's teacher. She had a great personality. Everybody liked her because of her sweet and helpful behaviour. She was a student too. After the exam, she got some time to do tuition for the kids.

She took me to her friend's house. I felt really difficult for their conservation. Chittagong and Cox's Bazar has different language accents, which is difficult or impossible to understand in the other part of Bangladesh. In this house, they gave me local fruits that were very delicious. I told them I couldn't understand their language, so they started speaking in front of me on some topic which they might not want me to know. I actually understood some of it and guessed the rest of the conversation. No, I didn't reveal those to anybody.

From this house tutor, I have learned how to tell a story. She tells every single detail in a way that everybody will stop doing their work and listen to her. I was amazed. Later, when I used to describe storied in college, my classmates said, we like how you tell us the story. All credit goes to my cousin's teacher, whom I never met again.

Thursday, August 3, 2023

They are different.

 Speaking less and can't speak is not the same.

Don't know how to bring logic to an argument and decided not to argue are not the same.

People who don't want to talk with you and who can't find words to communicate with you are not the same.

People who are in trouble and who use trouble as an excuse are not the same.

Though we constantly mix up with these kinds of people.

Wednesday, August 2, 2023

The history of hunting will always glorify the hunters.



"Until the lion has their historians, the history of hunting will always glorify the hunters." 

Some people say history will bring out the truth. Or, someday, the truth will come in front of you. Do they always? 

The truth or telling you a story from every angle of the incident totally depends on the historian. When a movie comes, it always gives a message and influences the audience. The movie maker has the credit to do that to the viewers. No matter how much they try, a general person will be influenced, more or less. It could be from a book, history, passerby, or someone they admire. When a predator writes history, they will obviously glorify the hunters. It could happen with animals, humans, or nature. It could be by written documents or a reel. You never know how it is influencing you. This influence works more for those who have no idea about the matter. So, whatever they first hear, influences them more.

Work with a peace of mind


I prefer to work in a peaceful environment without feeling rushed, stressed, lazy, or overly relaxed. It's important to me to maintain a pace that allows me to complete tasks on time without feeling exhausted or pressured. I enjoy taking my time to savour each moment.


Thanks to this approach, I've been able to complete most of my work on time without experiencing much stress. However, sometimes I've struggled to finish everything due to time constraints. I'm always looking for ways to improve myself and become more efficient.


Recently, I've started to feel overwhelmed and stressed. I have faith that everything will work out, and I'm determined to handle any challenges that come my way with grace and dignity.


Despite my relaxed demeanour, I work hard to complete my tasks on time. People often don't realize how much effort I put in until I'm no longer around to do it.