Thursday, November 19, 2020

Biography 13: Haircut

Earlier, people use to think, if you cut (I mean totally bald) your hair frequently, that will make your hair grow more and strong. So, in my childhood, my mom uses to cut me and my older sister's hair many times. But, as I told you earlier, I wasn't the girl who can sit down for some moments without moving a bit. In this condition, it wasn't easy to cut my hair. So, the only chance my mom had is when I fall asleep. But that was also very rare for my condition. So, whenever I fall asleep, she shaved my hair. Most of the time I woke up in the middle of her work. So, she couldn't complete her work. Then I play around my neighbourhood with half hair on my head. People laughed at me. Who cares? Later whenever she got a chance to shave the full head, she finished her work.




From my 5/6 years of age, my mom uses to give me Chinese style hair cut. I assume it was easy to do. I have started growing my hair at 8/9 years of age and after every 1/2 years, I use to trim my hair. That day my older sister was my hairdresser. I had cut my hair in a hair salon at the age of 29/30. I just wanted to make my long hair short. The girls at the hair salon didn't want to do that. They asked me, "Why are you cutting your all long hair? Did you ask your husband first? Let us cut a little bit, then decide later what you want to do". Finally, they said, they want to keep my hair for their training purpose. I said, Ok, no problem.


After 5 years of arriving in Canada, I have cut my hair short by myself. I could not give it a good shape by myself. I just wanted to distract myself. Anyway, it doesn't matter how it looks. It matters how I feel and I felt better.

Monday, November 9, 2020

People usually say this when they are in love

"for how long will you take me for rides like that,
now move this thing ahead..."

From this song:

[Source]

Tu ik Vaari Aa to Sahi Lyrics Translation | Judwaa 2


Movie: Judwaa 2
Music: Meet Bros
Lyrics: Sonu Saggu
Singers: Meet Bros, Neha Kakkar, Roach Kill (Rap)
Music Label: T-Series

sun baby deadly hai teri walk ni
tere Thumke bhi karte hain Talk ni

listen baby your walk is deadly,
even your dance moves talk.

ho dil kare dekhi jaaun teri ore
tu nazrein mila to sahi

the heart says that I should keep looking at you,
just meet my gaze...



dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe denge
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe denge
tu ik vaari aa to sahi
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe denge
tu ik vaari aa to sahi
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe denge
tu nazrein mila to sahi
tu ik vaari aa to sahi

I have given you my heart, I'll give you my life too,
just come once.
I have given you my heart, I'll give you my life too,
just meet my gaze...
oh, come once.

kab mummy daddy mere tu paTaayega
leke banD baaja ghar mere aayega
kab tak mujhe aise hi ghumayega
tu baat baRhaa to sahi

when will you convince my parents?
when will you come home with a wedding procession?
for how long will you take me for rides like that,
now move this thing ahead...

dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe dungi
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe dungi
tu ik vaari...
tu ik vaari aa to sahi
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe dungi
tu ik vaari aa to sahi
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe dungi
tu nazrein mila to sahi
tu ik vaari aa to sahi

I have given you my heart, I'll give you my life too,
just come once.
I have given you my heart, I'll give you my life too,
just meet my gaze...
oh, come once.

o baby I just wanna tell you
if I ever got a chance to love you

tu dil mera luT ke lai gayi
te ankhaan naal sab kuchh keh gayi

you looted and took my heart away,
and said everything with your eyes.

jab maarda tu mujhpe Try’aan
sharma ke meri palak hai jhukdi
jab pakRe tu meriyan kalaiyaan
heartbeat baRhdi te kabhi rukdi

when you hit on me,
my eyelids are bowed with coyness,
when you hold my wrists,
my heartbeat sometimes increases and sometimes seems to stop.

huaa tujhse main kuRiye attach ni
teri kunDli bhi kar lunga match ni
tujhe jaldi se wifey banaunga
tu mooD bana to sahi

I've gotten attached to you, O girl,
I'll even match my horoscope with yours,
I'll make you my wife soon,
you just get in the mood.

dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe denge
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe denge
tu ik vaari aa to sahi
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe denge
tu ik vaari aa to sahi
dil diya hai jaan bhi tujhe denge
tu nazrein mila to sahi
tu ik vaari aa to sahi

Sunday, November 8, 2020

Biography 12: My favourite place

 


When I was a kid, I use to walk around our house. Neighbours knew me, so nobody worried about it. My favourite place to spend time alone was the neighbour’s front door stairs. It was made of concrete. I used to play, sometimes I played with mud, made that place dirty, I use to drink my bottle of milk by lying on it, but our neighbour never gave any objection (As far as I know). I remember once I went inside their house with my mom. Maybe on Eid day. There was no kid in that house, so I wasn’t interested to make friends with them.

One day I fall asleep on their stairs. My family members knew where to find me, so they bring me back home.

I still like sitting on the stairs. Especially at the front door.

Sunday, November 1, 2020

When you are emotionally disturbed

 


To get rid of pain, many people do many things. Sometimes people hurt themselves. Previously when I saw these people, I use to think, why are they hurting themselves? What kind of solution is this? You get hurt and again you are hurting yourself? This is too much stupidity!

 

In life, when you get hurt emotionally so many times, and you will also try to figure out how to get rid of those pains or minimize them. When I feel upset, I also do some tricks to absorb the pain. But sometimes nothing works. At that moment, it came to my mind, why don’t I hurt me in a safe way (Don’t do anything which is harmful to you).

 

My hair is straight, black and long, about 24inch. I cut it in half, thrown all hairs in the bin. I must say, I have started feeling better! Now I know why people hurt themselves. It’s not about showing others, how much they get hurt, it’s about absorbing the pain. (Again, never do anything to harm yourself).

 

It’s been a month; I thought my son will notice. When he was a smaller kid, he uses to notice every small change in me. But now he is an 11-year-old boy. Maybe his concentration isn’t me anymore. He has started to be in his own life. And I am ready for it in my mind.