Social invitation

People give invitation for several reasons. People expect invitation also. Like if any known person get married or arrange any birthday party, in you mind you will expect to have invitation. But the person, who arranges this, is difficult to manage. He/she had to think many things. Budget, place, relation with the gust and relation between guest to guest etc. Some times they can’t invite all known people. And some times they had to ask formally to join, but in their mind they don’t expect those guest.

Now my problem is I can’t understand when any person really want me to go or not. Generally who ever invite me I join them. May be they didn’t like that but I couldn’t know. And if any one don’t invite me, I take it easy. Its not possible that every person expect me in their occasion every time.

Unless I need it

Generally I don’t take other’s favor, unless I need it desperately. But it’s true, if anyone does some thing for me, it’s really giving me very pleasure. And I know, in my mind I always like to have help from others.
And I help other, if I can. I do it as much possible, without making any harm for my self. Like when I reach at home, I feel very tired after giving 13/16 hours to office. But still I do work unless I feel that I don’t any energy to move.
In my holidays, my heart want to do a deep sleep at day time. But I don’t, I woke up in the morning and work at home till 1pm generally. Then take break till asar prayer.

But as usual, people never see what I do, they always scream what I didn’t do. Lets think as they wish. I will do for every one, though they thanks me or not. I know I am trying my best.

Dieting food

I tried to eat as little as possible, but the doctor suspects that it will create more problems in the stomach. I get afraid, so I increased taking food. It would have been better if I could get food whenever I feel hungry and could take a limited amount of food. However, this is a bit challenging in the office and with the in-law family...

Any kind of work

Generally I don’t hesitate to any kind of work. But my thoughts, doesn’t matches with others. My surrounded judges people with their work position. So, people are getting wrong impression. May be I should change my work style, no thoughts. My environment is changing me.

Some desperate people

Its good, when people are desperate to do anything. But it could also be a problem. It is some kind of trouble some, if you had to work with them. They think, they are always correct, so if you say about any missing. You are in trouble..

Not to care about sickness

As much as possible, this is what I am thinking now. I don’t want to feel sick and stay home and take whole day rest. Take other person’s help. I really don’t like it. Wish to get well 100%.
There is a proverb in Bangla “health is the main actor for happiness”. You can get everything, but if you are not in good health then you can’t enjoy anything.

Joining different communities

Generally, I am somewhat introverted. Don’t share my feelings and thoughts with others. I have started writing a blog without showing it to anyone.
Nowadays, I am trying to come out of the situation. Start adding the blog address in various places. Trying to continue blogging regularly. Start discussing multiple issues with others. Let's see when I can change a bit…