Sleepy weekend

It’s been a long time that I am feeling I need to sleep. Last weekend I gave myself a chance to sleep as much as possible and both days I spend my time mostly sleeping. I am really feeling good. May be that’s why I could tolerate many things which is not doing good with me.

Absent minded

To concentrate in one subject I have tried to forget about all and trying to focus in one problem. Goal is to solve one problem after another. But when I work, I can go more or less smoothly. But When I start reading and trying to understand it. Many things coming in my mind and I can’t understand what I am reading… very difficult to go with this situation. May be my absent mind is continuing thinking about all things that’s bothering me….

Dream

After marriage, I don’t know why I stopped (or can’t remember) seeing dream at sleep at night. I thought may be for work pressure, my brain become too tired to show any dream. Right now I am living at home (parent’s) now. And surprisingly I found I have started seeing dream at night again!

Judge people

When you ask any person about a particular person, you should be very careful, especially if you are new at that place. You don’t know who has what kind of relation with whom. You will see everyone has very good relation will all. So, when you ask anyone about a person, that person will take that advantage. They will bias you with their own comment. So, you should u use your judgment too, not believing other’s comment 100%.

Inside the hard ice

Feeling I am in deep cold sea. Where top of the sea is frozen and I am swimming inside it. Don’t know how to break it. It’s hard!

Quality or timing?

Quality or Timing, which one is more important? Depends, every project isn’t demand same priority. Every client doesn’t have same mental satisfaction. Some want their product in time; they can consider product quality up to some mark. Some company wants’ good quality in their product. They are not very strict with timing, but they don’t want to consider about quality. I prefer last one. It doesn’t mean project will be in never ending process always. In some cases it might me. When clients wants their product updated with time.
In Bangladesh most of the company gives emphasis on dead line. That’s the nature of our clients. But when I start work with Europeans I found they give pressure on quality.
When I work, if I get more than enough time, I have seen I can do work much better than expected. I do what was expected then get more time to think how to improve that and I do…. And my relax brain can think much better than when it’s in pressure.

Take benefit from your enemy

Long time back I have read ‘better to have an intelligent enemy rather than a fool friend’. I doubt, we can face problem for stupid friend, but why it will be better than an enemy? Now I think it’s true. Sometimes you may get important information from them. They might inform you because they want you to see upset, so they won’t care whether the news confidential or not.

Where should I focus?

As a human I am a social creature. Right now I have 3 places to live. Like, my in-law family, parents, and work place. To tell you the truth I don’t like any of them. May be I want 4th place, which I might have to create by myself. It’s difficult for me to give time and adjust with this 3 places. Everywhere I found non-cooperative persons. You know, you can tolerate non corporation from out side’s but not with them where you have family relation. That’s why I took the less problem zone my work place to make it better. I believe Allah will show me way or take me in better place, if this place isn’t for me. I don’t have to waste my time over here.

Without jealousy

It’s difficult to see others, going upwards without any jealousy. I have seen, many good friends; colleagues help their colleagues/friends, but when they see them doing really good, feels jealous.

Regular exercise

In Bangladesh if you go out in the morning you will see many people are running, walking and doing exercise on the road, park or in the open places. And you will see most of them are aged people. Actually Bangladeshi people are not very concern about their health or exercise. So when they get old get problem in heart, get diabetics etc. So they are then bound to do exercise.

Saying prayer everyday

All Muslims should say their prayer 5 times in a day. Most of the Bangladeshi’s are Muslim. Its looks very nice, without any pressure, many people go to the mosque or in market, in office, at home say there prayer in time. They believe in Allah. It’s a nice daily routine. Every day 5 times they do “Oju” (washes hands, face, mouth, nose, leg) and say prayer from deep in mind. In the mosque when all people stand together and say prayer, its looks very nice and peaceful.

Why brides don’t want to live with husband’s family

Before marriage I thought several times, why brides don’t like to live with husband’s family, if they love her. But now after marriage I understand what could be the reason.

I have seen my friends who are marriage, how they stay with new life. Almost all area I found actually people which family brings a bride in their family they have some typical problem in Bangladesh (may be some other countries too). They just want to get benefited from the bride. They never thought that this girl leave everything from her family and start living with us. They think they are showing mercy to that girl that they are letting that girl to stay with them.

In many ways they make that girls life miserable. They make her listens many bad comments of her and of her family and for everything she does, how she looks, how she talks. And keep complaining to her husband to make him do bad behave with the girl. No matter, what she do for that family, every where the family members give statement that the girl is doing nothing. In front of other people they show that they don’t let her work, but if no one is there, they make the girl work for them. Many times they make the girl feel that she is taking food from her husband’s family, not from her father or by herself.

Finally when the girl start avoiding the family then they again start telling that the girl isn’t mixing freely with them…. She is not a good girl etc etc.
I think every person should live separate after married. Its true if you stay together you will be benefited in many ways. But to live happy and peacefully, and to give peace to the girl you married, you should live separate. And no matter who says what husband and wife should trust each other and give company and help each other to solve each and every problem. They should protect each other when anyone attack any of them, they shouldn’t listen to them but help partner to get rid of that problem. They should become shelter of each other.

Abortion for a poor mom

Our med became pregnant. She has 2 more soon. Her husband is a rickshaw puller. She wasn’t ready to have a child. Now she wanted abortion her child.
I don’t like it. I am women too. May be some I will become a mother too. I am just feeling that she is killing her child because of poorness. I talked with her. But she is made her mind to remove this child now. Already she has taken some medicine to abortion, but failed. Soon she will go to hospital for abortion.
I am feeling very sad, that a mother has to risk her life to death and kill her child only because she is poor and can’t afford to bring her child in the world to survive.

Relaying on you

When people relaying on you, can’t take break easily. No matter how much you need to take rest or how much you feel sick. But you know, you have to manage time for you. For you and for those who are depending on you.

When you are in off mood

When you are in mood off, it’s very difficult to keep yourself look just fine. But that’s the professional life. Nobody care how you are feeling, everybody wants you as a charming person. Who cares for your bad moments? Maybe you are a good actor in the sense that you can keep your face normal no matter how bad you are feeling in your mind. But still, in some words, sometimes, people may understand you are not in the right mood. But keep trying… that’s healthier for your surroundings.

Being alone, not bad

You know what, may be no one wants to live alone. It’s not very fun. But still, sometimes people want to be alone. May be when they get big pain in mind. Sometimes we want to be with someone, to feel happy; sometimes to get rid of pain wants to stay away from the same person….

May be to be with someone is always big chances for lots of happiness, with lots of pain. It doesn’t matter how much you want them, it matter do they also feel same? Or they don’t care, whether you are available or not. It’s not big matter for them. Then why will you want them? Isn’t it better to be alone then? One sided feeling isn’t good I guess. It is better to keep what you feel in your mind and stay alone.

Money saving

Don’t know when I will learn that. Today I was calculating…. I am doing job exactly for 8 years and 3 months. If you ask how much I have in my bank? I will say less than 1000 taka!! How come? Because I expended all.
When I have first join in a software company Corona IT I had thought, now where ever I wanted to expend will earn and expend money. But you know, human has never ended wishing power. So my expending is list is growing up but earning isn’t growing like that. So there is always big list waiting to expend.
I tried to make some bank balance, and after some period I expend all. Again start keeping money as much as possible and again. A big expenditure comes and takes all it away… Don’t know when I will be able to keep sufficient amount of money in bank to feel financially secure.