Bad luck

 My luck never favours me in a lottery. I had never won any draw before. I remember I went to a boat party with my younger sister's classmate. It was a journey to Buriganga. they had given 65 prizes to the boat people. And my name wasn't there.

Last week I went to an Indigenous workshop. A bunch of people joined there, including my two other classmates. They organized a raffle draw. I gave my name too without any hope.

First, my two classmates won the prize. I didn't surprise that my name wasn't there. After a short break, they drew again and this time, breaking all the bad luck, they picked up my name. I was so happy to win the gift bag.

Is my lousy luck gone forever? I wish so...

My past, future and present

 A question about my past: How was I?

I was in working as a project manager in my home country Bangladesh. I had my professional and personal stresses but I didn't face financial problems or big concerns about it. I was also living in my parent's house. So, the shelter was also anything to be concerned about.

Then I moved to Canada. I had genuine reasons for that. My son was having trouble with food. Because of corruption or we can say greedy businessmen our country's food quality was compromised. Those kinds of businessmen started using harmful chemicals and pest control medicine in our food before they started producing. I mean they started putting it in the soil before they put the seed in it. Then keep spraying harmful chemicals and before they sell, dip those productions again in chemicals.

If you buy any fruit from a market then you can keep it at normal room temperature (Just note, Bangladesh is a hot and humid country), it won't get rotten even after months. You can try this on apples.

So, I moved to Canada for food security for my son. I believed in myself that my work capability will be noticed by Canadian employers and I will do good over here.

A question about my future:

My goal was to live a good life in Canada. Do a good job, and have a home and car. Enjoy life without much tension.

A question about my present life:

I didn't know much about the Canadian job sector before I moved to Canada. I had started applying for jobs in Canada from Bangladesh. Didn't succeed. Now I know, it's almost impossible to get a job that way. In Canada, I have started work at Best Buy. Again, I didn't know the job terminology and also had no idea how to cope with it. I started a contracted job. After my contract our manager asked me would you work here if we called again? I was happy that they liked me. I said sure. I thought they will call me next time to join.

Now I know I was wrong. The manager was saying when again they need people they will post it online. From the job site or from their website I have to get information and apply again to the company. As they liked my work, they would recruit me then permanently.

So, I miss this opportunity and miss others only for just not understanding the situation,

After seven years in Canada I understood, I need some training or course to prove to myself that I can be a good employee. This is the current job culture. I was admitted to a college. I tried to pick a subject with has job opportunities and also matches my interest. "Community Worker". I was admitted to a well-known college so that people give value to my education. To achieve this I had to make 4 hours of the journey (To go to college and come back) each day when I do class in person. I am busy almost every single minute with my assignments. I hope my hard work will give me a good position in my future life,

Biography 149: Eating food on the first day of Ramadan

 I am a Muslim woman. I don't fast during my period. No Muslim woman does. Is it?

In my childhood, I have never seen any woman eating or drinking during Ramadan. Some didn't eat or drink during that time because they didn't want anybody to know that their period was going on. So, when I grew up, I used to do this too. Sometimes I hid just to drink some water.

[Things have changed now, many people don't keep fast in Ramadan, and they eat and enjoy drinking openly. I really felt bad that our culture should support fasting, and if anyone wants to eat in the daytime in Ramadan, they shouldn't eat like this openly.]

A woman shouldn't feel shy at home during that time. We should help to change this culture and keep them suffering during the women's time.

I don't know why, but every year on the first day of Ramadan, I always forget for some moments that I am fasting. During that moment, I eat something, then again, I start fasting and forget that I have eaten something. Later that day, after Iftar time, I could remember that I had eaten something during my fasting.

When I was in college (Grade 11 and 12), that moment happened in my college time.

During our lunch break, I went to the canteen. I was surprised to see that canteen has very less prepared food. And only a few kids were there to buy food (Below 12 years). Generally, they used to make different kinds of delicious food, and the canteen or cafeteria was full of girls, and it was always very difficult to buy something from that crowd.

The cafeteria salesman was a little surprised to see me. I was the only senior girl. I bought something. Then sat in the cafeteria and ate it. I enjoyed the food. And also noticed that other senior girls playing table tennis were looking at me, saying something to each other's ears and laughing. I never bothered about what people said about me, neither at that time. After taking my lunch, I returned to my class and started fasting. I totally forget about my eating activity.

I understood where I was wrong after 2/3 days. 

It was the first day of Ramadan, so almost everyone (Except kids) was fasting. The only reason a senior girl will eat food on that day could be my woman time. That's why others were laughing at me.

Putting your child into a healthy daily routine

No matter how busy a mom becomes, her heart, eyes and ear are always focused on her kid. Especially when they became too silent. It means something must be wrong. Either they are busy with something that they shouldn't do or facing some trouble. For both reasons, mama needs to run and check out the situation.

I am still living in this situation.

My son used to like my company till he was a 12-year-old boy. Now a day, he doesn't want his mom around him. Mostly because mom doesn't like his activity and asks him to do those activities which he doesn't like at all.

My son's favourite activities: playing games, chatting with friends, listening to and watching songs on Youtube, and watching funny videos. Mostly plays games and all his favourite activities are on the computer. And if I don't let him play games, sleeping.

What I ask him to do, do his homework, clean his bed, brush his teeth and use mouth wash, do stretching, practice riding a skateboard, learn something on adobe illustrator (He choose it first) and make something, practice guitar (He choose it first), practice keyboard (He choose it first), writer blog (He has the capability of writing and don't want to utilize it), cook (When needed), do laundry (When needed), run on the treadmill, etc.

You can see there is no matching between his work and mine. So, obviously, he doesn't like his mother anymore.

Our gap increased because of my job. He was a free bird during my work time. Now every day I had to fight with him for his daily work. Today said, he has a headache so, went to sleep again after breakfast. I don't know how I am going to manage this boy to keep in with a healthy routine.

Soon he will be an adult, I hope by that time, I will be able to make him follow a healthy daily routine which he may continue.

I can only try, and pray for him. Allah will take him to his destination.