I can't hurt

 If I had trust in a useless person, it's my mistake. I accept my mistake. I have no shame to accept my faults. Though I still didn't learn how to fix this problem.

I want to stop trusting people, I don't want to take the blame on me to save them. I want to fix the trouble that I already had because of this trust issue.

Still, I'm far away to solve these problems. Because I can't hurt anyone. It's better to hurt myself.

When you are emotionally disturbed

 

To get rid of pain, many people do many things. Sometimes people hurt themselves. Previously when I saw these people, I use to think, why are they hurting themselves? What kind of solution is this? You get hurt and again you are hurting yourself? This is too much stupidity!

 

In life, when you get hurt emotionally so many times, and you will also try to figure out how to get rid of those pains or minimize them. When I feel upset, I also do some tricks to absorb the pain. But sometimes nothing works. At that moment, it came to my mind, why don’t I hurt me in a safe way (Don’t do anything which is harmful to you).

 

My hair is straight, black and long, about 24inch. I cut it in half, thrown all hairs in the bin. I must say, I have started feeling better! Now I know why people hurt themselves. It’s not about showing others, how much they get hurt, it’s about absorbing the pain. (Again, never do anything to harm yourself).

 

It’s been a month; I thought my son will notice. When he was a smaller kid, he uses to notice every small change in me. But now he is an 11-year-old boy. Maybe his concentration isn’t me anymore. He has started to be in his own life. And I am ready for it in my mind.

যে কষ্ট পেতে যায়, তাকে ঠেকানো যায় না... (You can't stop people from getting hurt... when they are mad)

[English version has given below]

আমি আমার কাছের কিছু মানুষকে খুব চেষ্টা করেছি বোঝানোর যে, কিছু ক্ষেত্রে হাজার চেষ্টা করলেও  লাভ নেই, যার পিছনে এত ঘুরছো, সে কোনদিনও তোমাকে ভালবাসবে না  কিন্তু একটা বিশেষ মুহূর্তে কেউ মনে হয় বোঝেনা, বা বুঝলেও মানতে পারে না। এটা অবধারিত, যে সে কষ্ট পাবে। চোখের সামনে শুরু থেকে শেষ পর্যন্ত এভাবে কস্ট পেতে দেখতে খুব খারাপ লাগে।

আমার কিছু বন্ধু ছিল (এখন যোগাযোগ নেই), যাদের কাজ ছিল সবার মনে আশা জাগানো। আমার এতো খারাপ লাগতো, কি দরকার মানুষকে এভাবে নাচানো। এটা ফান তোমার জন্য, কিন্তু যার সাথে করছ, সে হয়তো সিরিয়াসলি নিচ্ছে....। এদের ঠেকানো যায় না, খুব বেশি বোঝানোর চেষ্টা করলে রাগারাগি করে আমার সাথে বন্ধুত্ব শেষ।

আমার পরিচিত বেশ কিছু মানুষকে দেখেছি, কিভাবে আপ্রাণ চেষ্টা করে, বিপরিত লিংগের কারো মন পাবার। আমি বোঝাতে চেষ্টা করেছি, যাতে তারা এরকম না করে, এতে মন তো পায় না। উলটা সবাই ফান করে এদের নিয়ে, যদিও এটা তারা বোঝেনা বা বুঝলেও গায়ে মাখেনা। আমার ভীষন বিরক্ত লাগে, অথচ বোঝাতে গেলে উলটা আমার সাথে সম্পর্ক নষ্ট হয়ে যায়। ওরা বোঝেনা, ওদের এই আচরণের কারনে, যে আসত কাছে, সেও আসে না।

[১৩ ই সেপ্টেম্বর, ২০০৬]

Many times I tried to make understand people near me, that where you are trying to have loved isn't possible... They will never love you. But there are some moments when people don't understand what others are trying to say or can't accept it. Though I knew this is not going to happen and finally it will end with broken heart. It's really painful to see from the beginning to end but can't help it.

I had some friends (now don't have communication) who use to make hope on others heart. I didn't like that at all. It's not good. For you it's fun, but for others it’s the matter of sensitive hearts. I tried to stop them and make them feel what’s wrong. Result is, they fight with me and break the friendship.

I have some people around me are trying life and death to find a love partner. They don't get other's heart but people make fun of them. I don't know either they don't understand or don't care at all. I didn't like these humiliations so, told them not to run for people this way... because of your attitude, people who was going to come in your life, won't. But they didn't understand my point and get irritated with me.... and off course don't want to keep any relation with me.

Well sometimes or most of the times you really can't stop people from getting hurt... 

Things can be explained without hurting anyone

We all like to live together. And we might have many similar thoughts with some differences. Every people think s/he is right. Now, in which judgment you will say you are right? There will always be some different opinion. You just can’t put your judgment on other. Yes, you can bring in front the topic and show your logic. But people do it in their own way, mostly with anger and slang.

My word is you can’t hurt anybody even with your language. Things can be presented in good way… no matter what it is… just make sense what you want to say in good manner. Learn how to talk, without hurting anyone. You know, when anyone hurts you, you also feel the pain…

How could you hurt me?

When people show love, care and respect to me, obviously that makes a soft corner in my mind for that person.
And again if that person gets angry for any issue, i found just opposite nature of that person. I really don’t understand, if you love me, how could you hurt me?