Tuesday, March 31, 2020


When you are working on something with full concentration, something happens, or someone comes to you to distract you. How would you feel?

These distractions give me a headache. I became angry, sometimes irritated, sometimes I misbehaved. My son, the poor boy had faced this so many times. But he has a patient. Still, he didn’t stop disturbing me, especially when I’m working.

But later I found that every time I stopped, that gives me extra time to think, to figure out a problem to fix it.

I understood, if anything stopping me, then there must be a good reason behind it. I better take it easy.

Sunday, March 29, 2020

14 days

I have isolated myself for 14 days, due to Corona Pandemic. In these 14 days, I thought I will complete all my pending job. You can understand now, I couldn’t. But I did very few of them.

For me, these 14 days passed just like a day. It's true that I’m not feeling well. But slowly I can do all the household work and so I did. As I’m working slowly, whenever I felt too bad, I laid down; so, at the end of the day I found, there was still a lot to do, but no more time left.

In these 14 days, the thing I enjoyed most is that I didn’t have to go to work. I was kind of have the freedom to do whatever I wanted to do. I like working outside, but deep inside me, I enjoy staying at home.

Due to my health condition, if I had to stay home more times, I’m sure I won't mind. I wish during this Pandemic time I could stay home and work for my office.

The people who mostly benefited during my 14 days self-isolation time is my housemates. I take care of everything about them. When and what to eat, taking personal care etc. I hope I didn’t torture them too much. Because of me they had to go to bed early and woke up early. Maybe they are now praying to send me to work soon.
I know everyone isn’t like me, who can stay alone and work alone. For them I can suggest, there must be many things, like hobbies you wanted to do for a long time. Now you have time, so you can concentrate on them and utilize your time.

Wednesday, March 25, 2020

When do they meet?

I believe what Sharat Chandra Chattopadhyay (novelist) said. “who is yours, will come to you by himself/herself”. Then I started thinking, what will happen if both people kept thinking that another person will come? They keep waited in two different places. How/when will they meet? Maybe, only a miracle can make it possible. That will be more interesting.

Wednesday, December 4, 2019

Taking control of food

I like food. But I always try to have control on it. Like I drink two cups of tea daily. It doesn’t mean I don’t want to take more, but you know, I can’t make it as an addiction. Sometimes I drink coffee. Again, not more than one cup/mug in a day. My home country is Bangladesh. So, obviously my main food is rice. But I take it in certain amount and once in a day.
I break this food rule only in Eid days. On those days, I just eat, as much as I want… so, whole year, I wait for Eid days.

Tuesday, October 8, 2019

We should consider this situation

Meat is a very good source of protein. So, in hospitals, we should have Halal meat option. Because Muslim patients can’t take general meat.

When I was in the hospital, I had been served Turkey sandwich, which I couldn’t take because it wasn’t Halal. But I could take the veg muffin.

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

Can’t expect to have anyone in life, forever.

You can’t depend on someone or something by hoping that the person or the thing will be there for you, forever. In my childhood whenever I was in pain, I use to run to the window. There was a tree beside the window. My silent friend, who was always there for me, always listened what I said, never left. I used to talk with it silently. I believed; it was listening to me. Many times, I sat beside it when tears were falling from my eyes. It was there, I felt at least someone is there sitting beside me. I thought after my death, may be only the tree will remember me.

After some years, our neighbor cut that big tree, to make a big apartment. I surprised; it went out before me! I also learned; I can’t depend on anyone that they will stay with me for ever.

Thursday, August 15, 2019

I can talk, when I know the person is listening.

I don’t like to talk to any angry person. I better stay silent and let them think that they win. Sometimes I just say OK/Yes to make them calm down.

In a conversation, if the other person gets angry, I can feel that the person is not able to think properly or give me a logical answer. They will just argue to win to feel better. I don’t want to argue a person like that.

I can only talk, when I know the person is listening. They might agree with me or not. They will have a good logic behind that, and they will express that nicely.

Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Haters shouldn’t be responsible for health care.

I think, there is a major problem in Saskatoon hospitals. I went to the hospital about 3 times in 4 years. And I have seen it every time. There must be something that needs to improve.
I had unbearable pain in stomach, I went to the ER in the hospital. There I had to wait for 4 hours with this pain before doctor can see me. While I saw a man vomiting continuously with headache and other people was suffering from other problems. I have also seen nurses and doctors were making jokes and having fun together right beside these patients. They were laughing loudly. I never felt such helpless like that. You are lucky that you don’t have any problem, but you should respect other’s situation. At least in front of them.

You know what, this is not even the main problem that I am going to mention.

I saw, police bring a lady. Probably she had been raped. Police put their own jacket on her to cover her body. On the way to the operation theater one doctor was laughing and saying to the police, “Why didn’t you put her bigger jacket? It’s their right!” Then again, he laughed out loud. Police didn’t say anything, just smiled. The lady was an aboriginal.

My son was coughing with blood. We took him to the hospital. The doctor came, he was behaving very rude with my 9-year-old son, the way he was asking questions, like he was scolding him. Right beside my son’s bed, there was a same age white boy. The doctor was very nice and polite with him. We are the immigrant from Bangladesh.

I was lying in a bed at the emergency room’s corridor. I was in pain and feeling cold, but no body gave me any cushion or blanket on me. After hours one nurse noticed my condition and gave me pillow and blanket.

After 2.5 years, I was having breathing problem. I was lying at emergency room, attaching with heart and pressure monitor. Because of my problem monitor was beeping. An old lady was there beside my bed. She felt disturbed for that beeping. So, she called a nurse and asked, “Is it my monitor that is beeping”. The white male nurse said, “No, it hers”. Then he came to my area and turned off the beeping. Like if anything goes wrong with me, it won’t beep, and I may die. That’s OK, but no white people should get disturb. Later when things go worse, I had to call a passer by and ask my nurse to come and check me. She came and give me medicine with doctor’s concern and turned all machine on again.

Later when I get release, I wanted to talk with my doctor about medicine. That white nurse said, “You can take Advil Strength, if you have problem again”. I went to Walmart next day and found that Advil Strength has Gelatin, which is not Halal and we Muslims avoid it. He knew it, because I was wearing Hijab/covering my head with head scarf.

I think this mentality won’t change in a day. We need to do some workshop with health region employees including doctor’s and nurses to minimize this problem. Haters shouldn’t be responsible for health care.

Thursday, July 25, 2019

Group travel vs traveling alone

I believe everything has a positive side. For example, you may like to see new places on this Earth. So, you travel. And you know very well that because of your travel partner, your travel experience may differ.
You may travel with different groups. Then you will find, travel experience with each group is different.
When you travel any place with a group, even in an unattractive place, you will find it funny only because you are with a bunch of people. If you are traveling alone, then the place must have something to make you happy.
Again, if you are traveling in a group, you must adjust with everything with the group. In some cases, for a very small reason you my get hurt or someone may get hurt because of you. If you are traveling alone, you don’t have to worry about anything. But sometimes you may feel lonely.
Any group work means you must face more trouble and will have more fun. Alone work means less trouble, less fun.
Now choice is yours. It depends on how much you can adjust with others to have fun 😉

Wednesday, July 17, 2019

Using bug spray in summer

In Canada, people, who lives long are mostly from Saskatchewan. They live more than 100 years. We can assume this area has the healthiest environment in the country. As far as I understand this area doesn’t have industries like other big cities. Here mostly we have prairie fields with crops.
No wonder, in the healthy area’s bugs will be also be very healthy. When I first came here, I surprised by watching the size of mosquitoes. They are big, and if you have one bite, you will feel it for days.
So, in summer, no matter where you go out, in a park, beside the river or just to visit your neighbor, I will suggest you, put some bug spray before you leave. Especially to kids.