My screen times

I have decided not to touch the phone or any screen (Computer or TV) from 8pm to 5.30am. But it is now 2.57am and I’m writing. I hope I will gradually be able to maintain my screen time.

Nice Lyrics

Dr. Project Point Blank ~ A Song for V.

Lyrics:

I'll be the one to take you home,

to ease your mind, and bleed for you,

When you're down a note, and sail the stormy sea,

I'll be there, I'll be your man.

I'll be the one you can leave behind, and never look back to see if I cry,

I'll be there for you - when all other man leaves

I'll be The One, I'll be your man.

 

And I'll be your Christ, and take all your pain,

all your fears, pay all your debts,

And from the cross - I'll pray for you I'll be the one,

I'll be your man. I'll be your eyes when the sun goes down,

the moonlight fades, and night comes home,

my heart will burn to light your way,

I'll be there, I'll be your man.

I'll be the one to take you across burning flames and feel the stones

I'll be your bridge from cradle to worse your personal saint,

I'll be your man. I'll be the one you can leave behind, and never look back to see if I cry,

I'll be there for you - when all other man leaves

I'll be The One, I'll be your man.

How will I give him a solution?

I never had a close friend, I am always very stupid to let go opportunities, I get hurt by people unnecessarily when I didn’t do anything wrong with them, I’m too honest that people can’t guess, My love is one-sided. But still I know I’m a person of a good heart.

I thought, maybe my son wouldn’t be like me. He is not like me. But still, he is facing some common big problem that I am facing. He doesn’t have any close friend, he let’s go his opportunities, he gets hurt by people without any reason. He is very honest, but people don’t get it. He is a very person.

Sometimes I felt, why did I bring on earth to face too much trouble? I don’t know how to overcome my problems; how will I teach him? He just must learn by himself. That’s what I am trying to teach him. Find the solution to your own problem, your mom won’t there for you always.

My 3 favourite moments in rain

One, I had submitted a sample project by using JSP, Php and Asp. The guy told me my work was great, I may get a job in the company which office is in the UK. I was in Bangladesh. I became so happy. Who doesn’t want a good job? I was returning home and rain started. It was raining heavily, and I was walking on the footpath, without an umbrella. Branches and leaves were dropping beside me while I was walking. It was an amazing moment. I enjoyed every bit of it.

Later I got to know that the guy bluffed.

Two, we all colleagues went to celebrate one of our colleague’s marriage ceremonies. It ended late at night. One of my colleagues took a yellow cab to drop me at home. When we started home, the rain started, heavily. The driver turned on AC and music. Outside was very dark we couldn’t see anything. The moment was amazing. My colleague said, “Wow, this is amazing, I have to take my girlfriend to a tour this way!” This happened in Bangladesh.

Later he told me, he did make a tour with his girlfriend in the same way.

Three, my work was done at 11pm. It was a late-night, so I didn’t want to wait for the bus. I went outside, found one of our managers was standing outside with the phone. It was raining. I said, “Oh no”. He told me it was worse. Anyway, I started walking to my home, in rain, as usual without any umbrella. After some time, I heard some noise behind me. I looked back; I saw he was also walking with me. I asked, what are you doing? He replied, “Going home”. Good, I was happy to have someone to walk at the middle of the night. Then we talked, about simple things, about driving, home etc. Then in the middle of the way he crossed the road to go to his home, I keep walking towards my home. It was a great moment. This happened in Canada.

We never talk with each other before or after that moment.

Happiest moments

If I look back, the happiest moments I had, was my misunderstanding. I thought something happened, became very happy, then after a while, the truth came in front of me, I understood, it was something else. Maybe things were not true, but my happiness was real! Why would I ignore it?

A good schedule

During this Covid-19 pandemic, I am trying to make a good schedule for my son. So that he can follow the bedtime and morning time to wake up, won’t stay in front of a screen for a long-time, will do some study, some household work, some time in the backyard/exercise and of course his playtime.

My son didn’t like it. He wants to stay awake late at night, wants to sleep in the daytime, wants to stay in front of the screen for the rest of the day.

So, obviously, mother-son argument going on every day. He tries to stay away from me as much as possible so that I can’t ask him to do something. When I talk with him, he is trying to make it look like he didn’t get it, but I know, he did understand very well. Finally, he is making requests million times to give him extra facilities (For more playtime, no work).

I told him when I so “no”, why are you keep asking me? He said, “Just taking a chance, maybe after 100 times asking you will say YES”.

My favourite Nazrul Songs

In my childhood when I first started liking Nazrul's Song (Kazi Nazrul Islam, the national poet of Bangladesh) I liked three songs very much. Still, I like those. One is,

https://youtu.be/UV1_qqi1-Rk

খেলিছে জলদেবী সুনীল সাগর জলে (Water goddess is playing in the water)

তরঙ্গ লহর তোলে লীলায়িত কুন্তলে। জল ছল উর্মি নূপুর, স্রোত নীড়ে বাজে সুমধুর জল চঞ্চল ছল কাকন কেউর, ঝিনুকের মেখলা কটিতে দোলে। আনমনে খেলে চলে বালিকা, খুলে পড়ে মুকুতা মালিকা, হরষিত পারাবারে উর্মি জাগে, লাজে চাঁদ লুকালো গগন তলে।

The second one is:

https://youtu.be/Kvrduq6SweE

আমি যার নূপুরের ছন্দ
বেণুকার সুর
কে সেই সুন্দর, কে?
আমি যার বিলাস যমুনা
বিরহ বিধুর
কে সেই সুন্দর, কে?
যাহার গলে আমি বনমালা
আমি যার কথার কুসুমডালা
না দেখা সুদূর
কে সেই সুন্দর, কে?
যার শিখীপাখা লেখনী হয়ে
গোপনে মোরে কবিতা লেখায়
সে রহে কোথায়…

Third one:

https://youtu.be/r7fwi5114cU

রুম ঝুম ঝুম ঝুম রুম ঝুম
ঝুম
রুম ঝুম ঝুম ঝুম রুম ঝুম
ঝুম
খেজুর পাতার নুপুর
বাজায়ে কে যায়, যায়
খেজুর পাতার নুপুর
বাজায়ে কে যায়, যায়

ওড়না তাহার ঘূর্ণী
হাওয়ায় দোলে
ওড়না তাহার ঘূর্ণী
হাওয়ায় দোলে
কুসুম ছড়ায় পথের
বালুকায়
কুসুম ছড়ায় পথের
বালুকায়

তার ভুরুর ধনুক বেঁকে
ওঠে তনুর তলোয়ার
সে যেতে যেতে ছড়ায়
পথে পাথর কুচির হার
তার ভুরুর ধনুক বেঁকে
ওঠে তনুর তলোয়ার
সে যেতে যেতে ছড়ায়
পথে পাথর কুচির হার

তার ডালিম ফুলের ডালি
গোলাপ গালের লালি
ঈদের চাঁদও চায়

আরবী ঘোড়ার সওয়ার হয়ে
বাদশাজাদা বুঝি
সাহারাতে ফেরে কোন
মরীচিকায় খুঁজি
আরবী ঘোড়ার সওয়ার হয়ে
বাদশাজাদা বুঝি
সাহারাতে ফেরে কোন
মরীচিকায় খুঁজি

কত তরুণ মুছাফির পথ
হারালো হায়
কত তরুণ মুছাফির পথ
হারালো হায়
কত বনের হরিণ মোরে 

তারি রূপ তৃষায়

Tribute to Kazi Nazrul Islam (The national poet of Bangladesh)

https://youtu.be/8fTlwZ1ZQ5E

মোরঘুমঘোরে এলে মনোহর
নমো নম, নমো নম, নমো নম

শ্রাবণ-মেঘে নাচে নটবর
শ্রাবণ-মেঘে নাচে, নাচে, নাচে...
শ্রাবণ-মেঘে নাচে নটবর
রমঝম, ঝমঝম, রমঝম

শিয়রে বসি চুপি চুপি চুমিলে নয়ন

মোরবিকশিল আবেশে তনু

নীপ-সম, নিরুপম, মনোরম.

মোরফুলবনে ছিল যত ফুল

ভরি ডালি দিনু ঢালি'
দেবতা মোর, দেবতা মোর, দেবতা মোর

হায় নিলে না সে ফুল
হায় নিলে না সে ফুল, ছি ছি বেভুল
নিলে তুলি' খোঁপা খুলি' কুসুম-ডোর

স্বপনে কী যে কয়েছি তাই গিয়াছ চলি'
জাগিয়া কেঁদে ডাকি দেবতায়

প্রিয়তম, প্রিয়তম, প্রিয়তম

Mor ghumo ghore Translation by: Haider Khan You came when was unconscious in my sleep The stealer of my heart! Still, I send you my salutations! Namo Namo Namo Namo Namo Namo The rain-clouds od Shravana Show Lord Shiva dancing in love Ramo jhamo Ramo jhamo Ramo jhamo You sat near my head Stealthily, you kissed my eyes My whole body and soul enraptured Flowered like a tree in full blossom Resplendently beautiful I offered you all the flowers from my garden You in your absent-mindedness took nothing You picked only the small garland from my bundled-up hair Did I say something in my dream to turn you away? Awake now, I cry for my soul-mate, my divine lover Beloved, my beloved Priyotomo Priyotomo Priyotomo

Why are decisions like these made?

English is an international language. If you learn English, you can visit anywhere in the world.

Kids, who are studying English from elementary schools, get higher studies easier than others. Now if you stop them from learning and make them study another language (Like Arabic, Bangla or French etc.) they will miss a huge part of learning. They won’t understand the news reports from different countries. They won’t be able to speak with international language in countries. When they are travelling, they will start facing language-related problems in the airport(s). They won’t be able to understand a word other than the one language which they had been studying with.

 

I didn’t expect this to happen in Canada. A good school has stopped their English medium and became fully French. Students are asked to move to a different school or study French. The world is trying to move forward so why is it making a bad?

Why can’t I have it?

Playing with my mind. Trying to accept things easily, as it comes or didn’t come in my life.

If I didn’t get anything, then there could be any of the two reasons behind it.

One, I didn’t deserve it.

Or two, the thing doesn’t deserve me. Either way, it is good for me and I must take it easy.

The truth is I can’t do anything about it, so I better accept it happily, if I want to be happy.