Food in school in Canada

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All restaurant in Canada maintain a very common rule, that any food cannot be stay in room temperature for more than 2 hours. When 2 hours passes, we assume that the food has been expired. Because by these 2 hours viruses increases their amount which can be very hazard’s for human body.

This is not only for restaurant, at home we should also take very good care of this. Now my question is what about in school. We do not have any canteen in our schools that students can buy fresh food. All food they bring is from home, which is made 3 or more that 3 hours ago. So, I can see these foods are not safe for anyone. But we are providing it for kids. So, we are maintaining food safety in restaurant, sometimes at home, but school.

To solve this problem, every school can open a small canteen where safe food will be provided. Or they can ask any restaurant to open a small food corner to sever fresh food. The students who wants fresh food can buy from them. If canteen isn’t possible then parent can order online to serve in time at school. We have many delivery organizations who can easily deliver them from any restaurant from where parents have been pre-ordered and paid.

Good work is a sin

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I could never think about it, that one day my good work will be my enemy. Whatever I do, I try to do it well and gradually try to improve it. I try to learn from others and from books or from any instruction or tutorial. I don’t like to waste time. So, if I am in my work place. I just keep working. If there is no major task, I concentrate on other small details where it could be improving, which are not very important. And then also spend time on cleaning. So, finally when I work, not only my work finishes well but others too. Because I help to organize their one too.

Now this great quality became my enemy. People who work around me, started scaring of me. They used to say, “If she works then we all will get fired”. They make lot of planning and plotting to make me down. Like no matter who make mistakes, all will be put on me. Always keep complaining about me. Don’t’ let me do any big work, so that management will know that I know all very well etc.

This is happened all places I worked. So, clearly, problem is me. People can’t see me go upward, or even don’t want to let me learn. Their insecurity is killing me. I don’t know how to stop it. Because no matter what, I don’t want to hurt them. That’s me. I know, I am too good for this country.

Taking decisions

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Once upon a time, I use to think that 90% of my decision are correct. maybe it worked on those days. Now a day, I am thinking that 90% of my decisions are wrong.

I take decision in two ways, First, when I think about any matter, I try to think on both sides first, pros and cons. Then which side has more pros I pick that one. Mostly I take decisions in this way.

The other way is depending on my anger. When I became so angry on anything, I took some decision to make it feel better. Trust me, I never thought to harm anyone. In this way it takes only one second to decide on something. Very few times I took decision in this way.

No matter how I take my decisions, I always try to stick with it. Because whenever I have changed my decision, at the end I found, my first decision was right.

The strange part what I found is most of my decisions which I have took in anger, was correct!

Networking

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Networking is very common word in Canada. Specially if you are looking for a job, people who are ready to help you professionally will ask you to grow networking. Which means you must make communication with the people who can give you a good job. In general, this is a very simple and good way to get a job. But is it? Really?

That means you don’t have to make your skill good, no need any other qualification, dedication of your work, honesty. Trust me you really don’t need anything, if you have good networking quality. Just use your big mouth, show little smartness in attitude that’s it. Networking can give you any job you want.

Then what will happen to the company, who is recruiting you? No body cares, if they can’t run, they will stop their work. By this time, you will earn enough and get good experience certificate. Unless you get another job, your insurance will pay you.

No wonder Canada’s economy is behind other 1^st world countries.

What people just say but never mean it

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Sometimes people say things that they don’t mean. Everybody understands that they said it just to say something, or like greetings, or to just make the environment easy and to feel good.

But I’m too stupid. I always believe all words that other say to me. Several times I put myself in awkward position because of this attitude. Generally, whatever I say, I mean it. So, when others say, by default I take them as man or word. Or in my mind I want to believe them. So, unconsciously I trust all and their words.

Let me give you some real example of words, you can easily identify that these are all just what people say...

1. Please visit our house.
2. Take meal with us.
3. Please stay longer with us.
4. I will return your money.
5. You will be getting paid, whenever I will have some money
6. I will send your money to your home.
7. I love you.
8. I trust you.
9. I will never let you down.
10. I will increase your working hours.
11. You are too good.
12. I am your friend.
13. I will promote you.

There are more. Anyway, all of them was for me. And in time they all proved wrong. It’s not other’s fault. It’s my fault that I trust people so easily and then get hurt. Good point is I am becoming use to of it. So, whenever I found anyone, who isn’t keeping their words. I say to myself, oh, its natural human nature. Nothing to bother about it.

Pending tasks

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I always thought, if I keep working and make good use of my time, one day I will be able to finish all my pending job. Sometimes I made a list for my to do. And it always surprises me when I look at the list after a long time. I found there were lots of planning to do, which I couldn’t do. Let me give you an example, when I was a programmer, I had to plan to learn Visual Basic and make a software with it. But I never start working on these and then it goes under other new plan of tasks. Now there is no meaning to work on that and more over I don’t have time for it.

I am not slow, and I don’t waste much time. Then where am I going wrong? Or may be life is giving me too much things to solve and I must keep busy with new issues on every single day. If somehow, I miss to complete anything, it becomes never solve issue.

Sometimes I wish to have someone with me, who will work with me to solve my unsolved works.

Headache

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Headache is my old enemy, my biggest enemy. It makes me slowdown, non-productive and mostly gives me tremendous pain that I can’t tolerate. Sometimes it makes me puke. So, whenever I feel that my headache is going to increase, I take pain killer then try to sleep a bit etc. But life isn’t that easy, I have plenty of works to do, so now a day after taking pain killer, I keep working, but slowly. It helps to tolerate my pain while I am working. Why am I saying this today? Because I am writing this with my headache.

Writing

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Today my 9 years old son send me a big text message. Just for fun. I surprise that he wrote a story, kind of, with his feelings and current situation. He got cold now. So, couldn’t go to school and taking rest at home. So, he is missing his school and he wrote about that. I didn’t know that my son can write that well. I asked him to write something for me that I will post in his Facebook page. I want to share his writing. I am sure everybody will like it.

My patient levels

My patient level is very high. Yes, it is. And everyday in every situation, it is growing higher. But still, it has limitations too. I have accepted that my work isn’t going to appreciated by any one. I don’t say anything to those who bullies me. I am just surviving without claiming any help. I am living without growing up my status for long time. But I do not want to go down. Wherever I am, at least I want to stay on it. If you push me down, I must find something better or similar, and move on.

Rules

Its difficult to find the correct rules for anything. Like driving, immigration etc. There is a rule book off course, but there are also many hidden rules out there. Only professionals know most of them. If you don’t know, you will be failed.

My priority

What will be my priority to do? I thought about it a lot. When I am at job, I give full focus in it. When I am at home, again, I try to give full focus on my home duties. But there are a lot left, like for our future goal, I must take initiative and be active and give focus on that. Most of all, I have a son. He is still too young to think by himself what should he do now. So, for his current and future life, I must make plan and must make sure, he is taking good food, having enough brain activity, learning all the necessary things that I want to him to be learned, taking bath, and brushing his teeth regularly etc. Truth is, I don’t have enough time for all as usual. Everyday, I had to make priority list in my mind and go with it, which means everyday there are a lot of work left, which push back to my to do list. Sometimes I feel really guilt about that. But again, which work should I do first? Which comes at my priority? I really feel good, when I can finish all the tasks, that I had to do for my son. Otherwise guilt feeling don’t let me stay well and my son faces troubles. Yes, my son is my priority.

I never show up my work.

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I never say I did this or that. So, it’s very easy to over look my work or take advantages of it. People are very smart. They find this attitude in me very easily then according to their need they use it. Some use my skill to get promoted, some get other benefits, like show themselves as a good team player or worker. I used to see people taking all my credits for themselves. I have patient. I just keep doing my work, use my IQ to make it better. If you don’t get it, then fine. If somehow its seen by you, then I am grateful to you.

Making friends.

My best friend, Shafeen.

Making friends is not my thing. If I say I don’t have any friend, will you believe that? I have friends in FB, in real world too. But They are not like with whom I can talk about anything, or ask anything from them, neither they do this with me. I never had close friend. Wait, I had, then he became my boyfriend and finally husband. Now father of my son. Now I have two friends in my life, my son, and his father. Because I have deeper relation with them. But if I look at my social life. I am antisocial person and I don’t have any friend. I like to talk with people, I like when they visit my house, and like to join them when they invite me. But somehow again, there is always a distance, and finally those people get away from my life. These things teach me, how to live alone, if there is no one to help you, help yourself. Live happy by yourself. It’s not that bad. People can survive without a friend. Though I never wanted to be like that.

How to concentrate?

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Now a day, the major struggle I am facing is to keep concentration on one issue. At the same time, I am tired, physically not feeling well, mentally stressed, unset with different issues, a long of to do list, guilt feeling for not doing things successfully etc. So, whenever I am doing something, in my mind I am planning for others. Sometimes or most of the times, this behavior causes bad results.

Though everyday I use to say to my son, concentrate on your work. Now even I don’t know how to solve this problem.

I like Soft drinks.

I like soft drinks, especially in summer. But I am overweighed woman. Whenever I drink soda/soft drinks, my stomach becomes more visible. So, generally I don’t drink unless attending in any special occasion, like any festival or invitations.

Few days ago, we celebrate our last day of school. Out teacher and one student brought pizza and rest of us brought the soft drinks. So, you can guess there were a lot of drinks. After the party our teacher insists everyone to take as much as possible for our family at home. I took also. Now everyday I am taking soft drinks. It’s not finished yet. I have no idea how I will be look like after few days…

I can like anyone, right?

For me, loving someone and liking someone have huge difference. I can like anything or anyone. But love means something big for me. When you love someone, you can do or go anywhere to achieve or just to stay with them or sometimes just to make them happy. Liking won't let you go that far.

I am married, and I have a son. Still I am talking about it, because I felt many people misunderstands me. I like many people as a friend, as a human, as a teacher, as a colleague or just passerby. I am good with everyone. I help everyone as much as possible. But sometimes, this attitude create misunderstanding. People started believing that I love them. I don't know what to do with it.

When I was in the university, one of my friend told me, I should have feel proud and enjoy these situations. Let them think like that. I am not losing anything.

Well I tried, but I never felt good about it. Be my friend, I need you. Just don't take anything too far, that I can't reach it.

I will try to be happy with it.

After watching those people who are at my age, who are doing very good, have good position in society and listening the suggestions about my life from people around me, I understood, I should have done so many things, which I didn't try at all. But as usual I always face difficulties to make time to go for any new thing. Now a day this failure giving me a lot of pressure in my mind that I can't sleep. sometimes for 3/4 days I stay awake. Now I am feeling like my head is spinning, I can't remember small things, like where I am going, what I was planned to do etc. Today I became too sick that I couldn't go to my work or even work at home. I had to take break from my fasting after puke. My headache became too difficult that I had to just sleep by taking relax-ion tab.

But still, I am convincing myself, may be I am taking baby steps, but I will move forward. Whatever comes in my life I will try to accept that and will try to be happy with it.

I was wrong about me

From teen age I realize people likes me. Where ever I go people wants me to make their daughter in law. Somehow, they always use to find out a man in their family. It could be their son, brother’s or sister’s son, brother or any other relative and started to convince that poor guy to marry me. Because they thought I could be a very good daughter in law.

When I became adult, I found boys around me likes me. They try to offer me to marry or make a relationship with me.

From these situations I thought, maybe I am very good person, who can be a very good wife and daughter in law. I never have to be afraid about in laws family.

After marriage, I realize I was wrong. My in-laws family don’t like me, they found thousands of negative points about me.

I like to travel new places. So, in the University I wanted to study on Geography. I had heard, this subject’s students go for study tour every year in different places. And, I will be very happy to learn about the world. Though my family didn’t like it, I admitted at Geography & Environment and after 2 classes, I realize, I have made a very wrong decision. This is not my place.

I work sincerely, always try to improve myself and work in a way that the company gets benefited. I believed my bosses will understand my work and will give promotion or increase my wages. Again, I found myself very wrong. I thought may be when I will get chance to work abroad, smart bosses will promote me. But again, I was very wrong about me, maybe I don’t have any extra ordinary quality so that no one interested to help me grow in the company.

If the temperature goes below -30 c

Today when I went out, it was feeling like -34 c. I wore a boot, which had said that can cover till -30 c with a regular pair of sock. I was fine for first 30 minutes. Then my toes started frozen and I started feeling tremendous pain on my feet. I started walking to keep my blood circulation through toes and I felt little better. What I have learned from this situation is I have to wore thermal socks if the temperature became below -30 c.

I am not going to be like them

I always believe, if I don’t take anyone’s harmful vibe, if I don’t accept, no one can hurt me. Now a day, a person and her gang has only one issue in their life. How to demotivate and humiliate me. Somehow, she became insecure with my quality and they are good in their negative work, I think they succeed in some cases, too. But they are not stopping their activity. Where I am doing nothing. No action, no complain, no shouting. Only watching what they are doing. After meeting with them it takes hours to recover me from their bullying attitude. In my mind I broke several times. But somehow, I am fighting inside me to ignore and recover myself. I am not like them, so I am never going to repeat their attitude. I am good, I want to fix things with my good attitude. I don’t know that I will succeed or not. But I am not going to be like them.

Mashed potato, staffed with eggs: (Alur chop)

Ingredients:

Potatoes 1kg

Butter 2 tbl spoon

Black pepper 1/2 tea spoon

Bread crumb 1 cup

Eggs 5

Onion (sliced) ½ cup

Cilantro or Mint leaf 2 tbl spoon

Green pepper (diced) 1/2 (As much spice as you want)

Salt (According to taste)

Oil (To fry)

Recipe:

·         Boil the potatoes and mashed them.

·         Mix butter, black pepper, and salt with the mashed potato

·         Divide potatoes in 16 balls.

·         Boil 4 eggs.

·         Remove the shell and diced them.

·         Take on egg (Not boiled) in a small bowl and crush it.

·         Put the fry pan on the stove and warm 1 tbl spoon oil.

·         Fry onions in that oil.

·         Mixed the boiled diced eggs with salt, black pepper, green onion, and mint.

·         Divide boiled eggs into 16

·         Now put one part of eggs from 16 into one potato ball. You can shape it as the way as you want.

·         Put the potato ball into raw crushed egg and then in bread crumb. Then keep it in a plate

·         Make all 16 potato balls like that

·         Fry it in oil

·         Serve it with any favorite dipping.

Credit: This is from Siddika Kabir's recipe book

I keep quiet

People get extra benefit in front of me and I do nothing, just watch it. Even when I was standing at the same place but could not say anything. Where I should remind them that I should have this benefit too. Because I was at the same condition as the person is getting extra benefit. But I couldn’t.

I don’t want anything by force. I believe if things meant for me, it will come to me, whether I try or not. And, I don’t feel good after any fight, so I avoid it always. I know, fighting for your own right is necessary for some condition. But I really don’t like any kind of fight, it hurts me so much that I better let things go. Later your Karma will catch you, I don’t have to do anything.