I have no comments on the lyrics. I liked the music and the dance...
Thursday, December 28, 2023
Wednesday, December 27, 2023
Biography 194: Masters of Science
We were the last batch of our department who had completed their bachelor's degree with honours in 3 years. From the next batch, they had 4 years of bachelor's degrees. To make the education system similar to that of the Western world.
Then, I did 1-year postgraduate (MSc). According to our marks, we were divided into two groups in Masters. Thysis group and non-thysis group. I was in the Non-Thysis group. Then, we have the option to study urban planning or rural planning. I have taken Urban Planning. Our professor was Nazrul Islam. We were lucky to have such a professor. The University of Dhaka should be proud of him because of his knowledge, research and good teaching style.
Though there are some things that I don't like about him. During our class, he told us he had given very lovely lectures last year, but he found students had written from somewhere else in the exam. Their note should have included his opinions.
So, we all make notes in his class based on his lectures. Next year, we heard him tell the junior class that this class didn't write anything new; we made him read his own words only in the exam paper.
I was angry for some other reason. He gave marks on viva at the end of all exams. I got only one mark less to achieve first class.
It hurts.
Sunday, December 24, 2023
Trying to change
You have no idea how stupid I am. When people get to know about that, they become speechless. How ridiculous a person can be.
Businessmen try to make money from their consumers as much as they can. In my case, sometimes they say you have given enough. Go somewhere else that will take less from you. Even I am not feeling good about this. This didn't happen once; it happened several times in different countries.
I always try to help people. Because I know how difficult it is to handle everything all by yourself. How it feels when there is no help for you.
One day, someone told me, don't help if they don't ask for it. I knew he was right. I try to follow. But then again, I compare it with myself. I don't ask for help. Though I always needed.
The most stupid thing I do is when I help some people who don't want that help. Even they refused to take my help. But I knew they actually needed that help. So, by force, I help them. They kick me out of themselves. Though they get benefited because of my help. I knew they needed that help.
I am trying hard to change myself. Mainly to stop this force help. Only keep this going with my son. And again, he doesn't want me to help or care for him.
Saturday, December 23, 2023
Biography 193: Cox's Bazaar Tour 4th time.
4th time I went to Cox'a Bazaar with Graphic People friends. Some of them, with their spouses, are my Facebook friends now. Whenever I went to Cox's Bazar beach, I found everything had changed. It is a very fast-growing and developing tourist spot in Bangladesh.
This time, I actually didn't want to travel. One reason is I have seen this place already. Another reason is that I like to travel in comfort. I don't try to save money by leaving comfort. But many people keep their primary target to save money. They travel by expending as little as possible. I am not saying this is wrong. I am just not that kind of person. I like to stay good, as much as possible. I knew the group wouldn't like it. So, I said no at the beginning.
But the tour leader, Shohrab Bro, isn't going to let any group member stay home. He arranged special treatment for me, like a luxury seat on the bus and an AC room for only my family. But I had to go with them. I really liked all of them. We travelled together. I recommended fish BBQ on the sea beach and going to Saint Martin's Island. Our group leader listened to these two recommendations. I am sure everybody enjoyed it. The rest of my suggestions didn't work out. That's OK. I wasn't the group leader.
It was a great tour. Then I moved to Canada. I heard the group went to Sylhet next time. I missed that tour.
Thursday, December 21, 2023
Wednesday, December 20, 2023
Tuesday, December 19, 2023
Turning off the TV while dining
As much as I can remember, I used to eat with my parents in my childhood. During my teenage age, I started taking plates from the table and going to the living room to sit in front of the TV. I used to eat while watching TV. I thought I was utilizing my time. Watching TV and eating.
My dad didn't like it. He always said this is not a good habit. You should sit at a table to eat your meal. And shouldn't watch the TV while you are dining. I didn't disagree with him in those days, but I also thought my idea was better. So, I didn't listen to him.
Nowadays, my son wants to play games and eat food. Obviously, I didn't allow it. I let him watch the news during breakfast while he is having breakfast together at the dining table. At lunchtime, if he wants (He generally doesn't wish to except for holidays), he can watch a movie, but he has to eat together at the table. During dinner time, I close all the screens. Now, only he can see each other's faces and talk while eating together at the table.
Sometimes, he doesn't like the food I cook. I knew he had certain choices. At that time, I let him take food to his game table so he didn't waste it. While playing a game, he can finish his bowl slowly.
I hope my plan works for all generations. I hope I am keeping my father's words now (By taking food together on a table, not in the living room).
Sunday, December 17, 2023
Song: Love Your Voice
Beautiful melody and a beautiful song.
English Translation:
My baby, I love
My baby, I love your voice
Oh, my baby, I love
Oh, my lady, lady
My baby, I love
My baby, I love your voice
Oh, my baby, I love
Oh, my lady, lady
I'm cold without you, I'm comming to you without any reason
Touch me unwittingly, say what makes us different
Everything's on fire and your eyes are unbroken universe like Narnia.
Loose them in the dark, but look at me carefully.
Storm, storm outside, won't come to our door
Storm, storm outside, but I can only hear your voice
Your gentle voice will save me
My baby, I love
My baby, I love your voice
Oh, my baby, I love
Oh, my lady, lady
My baby, I love
My baby, I love your voice
Oh, my baby, I love
Oh, my lady, lady
My baby, I love
My baby, I love your voice
Oh, my baby, I love
Oh, my lady, lady
My baby, I love
My baby, I love your voice
Oh, my baby, I love
Oh, my lady, lady
Source: https://lyricstranslate.com
Saturday, December 16, 2023
Biography 192: My 3rd Journey to Cox's Bazar
Tipu bro invited me to Cox'a bazaar with his team, Anika, her husband (Ex), Mushumi, and Fahad. I like to travel to new places. He said they would go to Saint Martin's Island too. I had never visited that place. So, I was happy to join them.
When you work together, you get to know about people. But when you travel together, you will find some hidden attitude, even after years of working together. It could be both positive and negative.
I never worried about myself. No matter how much I try, people don't like me. So, I don't bother about it anymore. I will just be myself. Like me or hate me, your issue, you better deal with that. I have no problem to travel with you.
I liked the hotel in Cox's Bazar because of its location, beside the sea. You can see the ocean from your bed. It looks like the Hotel's own tub.
On those days, there were two restaurants placed on the sea. They were made of bamboo. You could literally take food on the sea. I tried the "Loitta" fish fry, which Moushum recommended. This was amazing. If you ever visit the Cox'a Bazar, I recommend you try this.
We booked 3 rooms right one after another, like the 3rd, 4th, and 5th floors. So, when we all came to the balcony at night, we could chat together. Travel always gives you small, tiny, beautiful memories to smile about later.
Tuesday, September 5, 2023
A beautiful Hindi romantic song
Monday, September 4, 2023
Subway (পাতাল রেইল )
Subway means a train that will operate under the ground. I liked this system. To handle traffic in a big city, it's essential to implement a subway.
In Toronto, we need a subway to cover all areas and interconnected to all cities in the GTA and the entire Ontario. This may cost a lot to establish, but handling traffic rushing in on the ground will be a great benefit. We must not only think about the current situation. We must consider how population and movement flow will grow in 100 years. If we don't start now, the next generation will have a big problem.
This suggestion is for all major cities in other provinces to secure a sound transport system for their future.
In a subway, the train runs under the ground. So, there is no landfill obligation; it can move directly from one place to another. So, it reduced the movement time and fuel. A train can contain more people than any other land transport system.
We should make shops (for everything, including groceries) and washrooms in every station. This will reduce traffic jams on the road, making more interest in using the subway. If all areas are covered with a sound subway system, the road traffic situation will be better, less carbon emissions will happen, and people won't need to stay in the big city and pay more.
And we must make all transit systems comfortable for disabled people. Then, they will only depend on themselves.
This subway system can be beneficial, like a safe spot, if air gets polluted too much by accident.
This is a great travel system in winter when roads are blocked by snow.
Every work has a negative side. We know we must give sound monitoring systems and security for everyone with a proper drainage system. Monitoring the work so that they don't take unnecessary time to make the job more expensive and maintain the station and line properly after development.
We should start developing the Subway system for better and more significant success. Gradually, one after another, complete all.
Sunday, September 3, 2023
I also experienced the same feeling.
Saturday, September 2, 2023
I like this music
Thursday, August 31, 2023
Biography 191: My 2nd journey to Cox's Bazaar (journey)
I and Shumi were standing at the Hotel, in Cox's Bazaar. |
We were in the honours third year at the University of Dhaka. Our field trip decided to go to Cox's Bazar and Teknaaf (The southeast district of Bangladesh). Our professor, Mr. Baki and another professor (I forgot his name) were with us. Mr. Baki's daughter also joined us on this field trip.
Our professor said we would train from Dhaka to Chittagong, then take a bus from Chittagong and go to Cox's Bazaar. In those days, the Dhaka to Cox's Bazaar coach service was newly started. So, Saleh said, why don't we go to Cox's Bazaar directly. Why would we take pain to change the train with luggage? Our professor said girls have some specific needs, so we won't make this long single journey. Saleh stopped.
He thought what could be a reason. I am a girl, even I was thinking, what could be the reason? Later, Saleh burst on us by saying, I am a boy; I couldn't say anything, why you girls didn't say anything. Well, we were confused, too. And didn't want to make any uncomfortable discussion.
We enjoyed the train journey. The bus couldn't give us this many fun times. On the train, we drank tea several times. Sometimes, others join us, too. Shumi asked if we should pay for all or just for our drinks. I said, let's for us only. We all students can't have the luxury of paying for everything. Saleh didn't like that. He paid for all (Once) and asked the tea seller to return Shumi's money. I knew he tried to make us feel bad. Well, I didn't mind, as long as you pay for me. So, I asked Shumi to enjoy it and not think too much about it. I still believe we made the right decision.
In the Hotel, Shumi and I stayed on the 3rd floor. Sometimes, boys tried to take the power plug off from outside to make us scared. I didn't bother. I just came out and fixed it and again went inside. They understood this one is not going to make us feel anything.
Wednesday, August 30, 2023
Why do women leave men when they have money.
Why do some women choose to end their relationships with men who have a lot of money?
I knew some families wanted their wives, less educated and non-working. Non-working doesn't mean they don't have to work, it means they have to work at home full-time, not outside. Non-working means no earning.
No earnings doesn't mean they can't bring money at home; it means, they can't spend time or energy outside to earn money. They can bring money from their home, parents or wealth.
What's the problem if she has the qualities to earn money? Thinking is, that she might not stay with her husband.
So, you think, she needs money, that's why she married and stayed with a husband? Can't her family feed her? Or can't she earn her own expenses? Then, after marriage, you have to cut off her money and make her stay with you? Couldn't you give her any other reason to stay with you? Love, respect, care, support, good feelings, nothing?
You won't give anything, only take all her attention, her body, labour, creating and raising your child by her and will also cut off her wings so that she can't fly and find a suitable place to live. More over you will dishonour her by saying she doesn't do anything (Which means not earning money), and she has to live without saying anything, just listening to all the orders from you and your family. No matter how humiliated she felt, how much hard she needed to do, not having good food and rest.
And then you will say money is the only reason to break a family when a woman tries to get out of a humiliated living space?
If you loved women, you would have let her live how she wanted to. And enjoy her company and her love the way she tried to give you.
If she wants to leave you, let her go. Help her to stay safe wherever she wants. Be a man. If she doesn't want to live with you or love you, let her be. Treat her as a human, not like your pet. Respect her and her decision. Fine, someone who wants to stay with you.
Tuesday, August 29, 2023
Everybody likes this song
SONG: As Long as You Love Me
ARTIST: Backstreet Boys
WRITERS: Max Martin
Lyrics:
Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leavin' my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me
Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be
I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (I don't know)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me (yeah)
As long as you love me
As long as you love me
I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin' from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby
I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did (yeah)
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
As long as you love me
Who you are
As long as you love me
What you did (I don't care)
As long as you love me
Source: LyricFind
Monday, August 28, 2023
You are stronger than you think
Sunday, August 27, 2023
Beautiful song
Watch the lyrics with the English Translation:
Title: Sun Saathiya
Movie: Disney's ABCD 2
Music Composer: Sachin – Jigar
Lyrics: Priya Saraiya
Singers: Priya Saraiya, Divya Kumar.
Lyrics:
Ho.. Sun Saathiya Maahiya
Barsa De Ishqa Ki Syahiyaan
Rang Jaaun, Rang Rang Jaaun Ri, Haari Main
Tujhpe Main Jhar Jhar Jhar Jaaun
Hoon Piya Bas Teri Main
Ho Chhu Le Toh Khari Main
(Toh Khari Main Khari Main…)
Main Ret Si, Boond Ka Zariya Tu
Paa Ke Tujhe Bheeg Jaaun Re
Main Ret Si, Boond Ka Zariya Tu
Paa Ke Tujhe Bheeg Jaaun Ri
Tar Jaaun Tar Tar Jaaun
Dariya Ye Tar Jaaun Jee
Ishq Ye Paake Main Tera
Nikhar Jaaun Ri…
Piya Bas Teri Main
Ho.. Chhu Le Toh Khari Main
Toh Khari Main Khari Main…
Sun Saathiya Maahiya
Barsa De Ishqa Ki Syahiyaan.
Source: https://youtu.be/TGpG56pg3UU?si=B_5I-avk3o2wxtyd
Saturday, August 26, 2023
Biography 190: Rosher Pitha (Bangladeshi Dessert)
Source: https://youtu.be/1Ruu-dZCpoM?si=PQ0CQTUiUvspMz4D |
Rosher Pitha (খেজুরের রসের পুলি পিঠা) is a Bangladeshi dessert. After the fall, in winter, women used to make this dessert. Because in the fall, all crops, especially rice, had been taken out from the field. So, at home, plenty of rice is available in winter. Women used to make rice dumplings with fried sweet coconut and put it in a sweet soup. Which consists of date syrup, milk, coconut, etc. They keep the dumplings inside the soup for a night, and in the morning, it tastes like heaven.
Let's come to the main story. When I was visiting my youngest uncle's home in Cox's Bazaar, one night, my aunt decided to make rosher pitha. At night I also helped her to make a huge amount of dumplings, which she put in the sweet sauce for the night.
The next day, we went to Bandorban (that's another story), and after one night's stay, when we returned, we found all pitha had finished. My aunt couldn't understand how 2 people my cousin and his friend, finished all in one day. Later she got to know that they invited more people to join them to finish the pitha. So, my bad luck that I couldn't taste that pitha. After that, no one made me anything like that, nor did I try to make it. Just never had that dessert anymore.
Friday, August 25, 2023
Tolerating everything without any complaint
Waiting for a doctor, even when you have an appointment, gives you mental stress. Every time you buy regular medication again, you must wait for the doctor's sign for hours, putting you in intolerable pain. Still, the shake of a Bangladeshi doctor tolerates everything without any complaints.
Actually, I tolerate everything without any complaint.
Today, I have agreed to give $250 to the landlord to clean my house.
Trying to live in peace as much as possible.
Thursday, August 24, 2023
I like its melody
Wednesday, August 23, 2023
As long as you are moving.
Tuesday, August 22, 2023
Beautiful version of DESPACITO
Monday, August 21, 2023
Biography 189: My first tour to Cox's Bazaar (The sea beach)
Shekha, our father and I, beside the Red Sea. |
One day, my uncle took us to watch (he literally meant it) the sea. My cousin Ranku Bhai didn't join. His friend, uncle, aunt and their two sons take a bus to Cox's Bazaar.
When we arrived at the sea, my uncle expected me to be surprised. First of all, this is not the first sea I watch. I have seen the Red Sea before. I was surprised by watching the wave. Red sea water is crystal clear and has almost no waves, almost. Here, the water is complete with sand, and the water current is very high.
I wanted to go to the sea, but my uncle stopped me. He said, you can only get wet your feet; that's it. I can't take more risk. If anything happens to you, then what will I explain to Bubu (Sister, my mom)? I couldn't understand then what I should do.
After some moments, my aunt came as a rescuer. She said to me, go to the water and enjoy as much as you want. I will handle your uncle. You arrived here after a long journey and don't know when you will return.
I smiled and went to the water. I didn't go deep water, as I don't know swimming and can't handle the big waves. I saw my uncle and aunt arguing, then my uncle kept walking with me on the sand. Just keep following me as I was walking inside the water.
Later my aunt captured a starfish, she wanted to take home and put in an aquarium, but we didn't succeed. Uncle told her not to jump, laughing with me too much. No woman is doing like her, so she should be more conservative. I didn't like this, but my aunt stopped playing with me.
We take lunch and taste the local food. It taste's great.
We sat on the sand to see the sunset. It was amazing.
After the sunset, we came back by bus to my uncle's home. My cousin stayed alone at home the whole day with an angry face.
Sunday, August 20, 2023
A south song
Although I could not comprehend the lyrics, I thoroughly enjoyed the melody.
Friday, August 18, 2023
Government earnings.
Governments rely heavily on taxes as a source of revenue, but it's essential to consider the impact on citizens. To ensure a diverse income stream, governments should explore alternative revenue sources such as building factories, export - import goods, restaurants, tourist attractions, and other services that cater to those who can afford them. This generates income for the government and allows them to reinvest in public services and infrastructure for the benefit of all citizens.
By implementing this approach, numerous individuals will also be able to secure employment.
Thursday, August 17, 2023
Nice version of the "Shape of you"
Wednesday, August 16, 2023
A gift on the Chinese New Year
Tuesday, August 15, 2023
Biography 188: to avoid ghosts
I used to read books (Non-academic) from very childhood. In those days, I read some old traditional fiction books, like "Thakurmar's Jhuli," "And Thakur Dadar Jhuli." Most of those stories are about Kings or princesses. There are some ghost stories too.
In one story, it said, there were ghosts everywhere in the village. One person gets out from there somehow by saying this:
"ভুত আমার পুত/ bhut amar put ,
শাকচুন্নি ঝি/ Shakchunni jhee,
বুকে আছে রাম লক্ষন/ Buke achhe ram lokkhon,
করবি আমার কি./ Korbi amar ki"
In Bangla, it is called, "Mantra" to avoid ghosts. I was in grade 2. I believed it. I memorized it as a solution to get rid of ghosts. Never used it. Among many, this was a misbelieve from my childhood.
Monday, August 14, 2023
Sunday, August 13, 2023
At least, I tried.
4 months is quite a long time to achieve any short-term goal. My goal was to do some pending tasks I had planned after coming to Canada. But I was working all the time, so I needed more time. So, this year I took a break. I needed to give myself some time to take a break. Break from work or study, so I can concentrate on other parts of my life.
In some matters, I could complete my plan; in most cases, I couldn't. The only destruction was me. So, many things were running in my mind, making things more complex for my mind and body. So, I stopped, take a pause. Now again started getting the speed. I don't know how far I will be able to go, but I will try. At least I tried.
Saturday, August 12, 2023
You just need to move on
Friday, August 11, 2023
Biography 187: My first tour to Cox's Bazaar (aunt's great activities)
My aunt's nickname is "Khuki" (Which means a small cute kid). I met her when I was very young. I found her a beautiful lady with big eyes and an amazing smile. The best thing she has is her speaking quality. She can become friends with anyone. My uncle is the youngest son of my grandfather (Maternal), so I have seen my aunt very humble with all older people.
I have seen her another role after visiting her home in Cox's Bazaar. She made the house very simple and pleasant. She cooks delicious food for all. She manages her two kids, and later they have one daughter too. I have seen how she cared for everyone, including me. She monitored every person's choices and food habits and prepared food according to that information.
She bought fresh food ingredients for us. Every day she made different traditional kinds of food for us and at the end, she prepared traditional festival food (Like polao, korma, salad and more). She made "Pitha" (traditional Bangladeshi cake) for us too.
I was there for a week, and during this time, cold relations continued between my uncle and cousin. My cousin later showed his anger toward me too. My aunt always talked with everyone, including my cousin and his friend, to minimize the problem; things improved but never vanished.
Later when my aunt met with my mother, she said many good things about me to my mother, like how I behaved with all and helped my aunt with her work etc. I found this is an outstanding quality in her too.
In our country, traditionally, sisters don't like their brother's wife. My mom followed that tradition always. But I always felt my aunt is a great woman. I tried to learn a lot from her. Especially the way she handled the guest and later spoke about them to others.
Thursday, August 10, 2023
All schools should have AC
All schools should have air conditioning. In the hot weather, we think about ourselves; that's why we put AC in homes, offices and other workplaces. We think about aged people too, so we install AC in old homes. But what about kids? They are tiny, and can't talk for themselves to the authority that doesn't mean whole day they have to stay in a place where AC isn't available. Especially those attending classes on the top floors, do you know what trouble they face?
Wednesday, August 9, 2023
Vaccine for Covid-19
Tuesday, August 8, 2023
Biography 186: My first tour to Cox's Bazaar (childhood activities of my cousins)
Here Shafeen brought some snow inside the house. |
I have seen some childhood activities of my cousins in that house. They are living in South Africa now. Got married and settled down.
When I went to their house, both cousins were in elementary school. They were doing excellent results in school on those days. All credit goes to my aunt. I have seen how patiently she used to sit with them and help them to study.
Tonoy is the older son. He used to give me company all of the time. He said he can sing well. I showed him dance in a contract that he would sing a song for me. But after my dance, he decided not to sing.
His younger brother is Tonmoy. Most of the time, he runs away from me whenever I try to talk with him. But always followed me from a distance. Just keep smiling at me. My aunt's first duty is to check his pockets when he falls asleep. He kept his whole world in his pockets, like toys, marbles, fruits like oranges, wires, etc. My aunt showed me that he broke the cupboard net to take out malta (fruit). He used to play outside and come home with a whole body of dust. My aunt first took him to the shower and let him go to the bedroom.
Monday, August 7, 2023
After my death
When I found out a friend had died, thoughts about death came to my mind seriously. What will happen after my death to my son, how he will manage everything, etc. Though I have no control over any of it. Just trying to make things easy for my son.
He is still very young to understand my words. Maybe he will never understand his mother. I just tried to prepare him as much as I could. I can try, and I am doing that as efficiently as possible.
People who know me, I can only tell you. Please be helpful with him, help him to grow or live as he wants. If you ever liked me for a moment.
Sunday, August 6, 2023
Blue Eye Test.
Saturday, August 5, 2023
Biography 185: My first tour to Cox's Bazaar (Uncle's home)
My uncle rented a house in a village near Cox's Bazar City. From the bus, we took rickshaws to that house. From the main road, we went inside the village on a narrow road. We passed a village market also on our way. Then we stopped at a place. Then we had to walk through a jungle (it looks like) for a few minutes to reach the house. It was a one-storied concert house, but the roof was made of tin shed. There were little open spaces at the front and a backyard too. Later my cousin drew a selfie on the soil of that front open space. I didn't have a camera or cell phone to capture it. The doors and windows were made of wood.
I am trying to explain in detail the house because I liked it. After reaching home, was walking around and talking with my uncle's two tiny sons, Tonoy and Tonmoy. My aunt became very busy preparing food for these unannounced guests. But she seems kind of used to this situation. My uncle bought some mattresses for the guests.
My uncle was really surprised by me. He said the way you were throwing out, I thought you would lay down on the bed.
Later, when we returned to Dhaka, my brothers sat in another place, not beside me ;). They scared. Though I became an expert in handling myself on the bus so things didn't get nasty.
Here I met with Tomony and Tonmoy's teacher. She had a great personality. Everybody liked her because of her sweet and helpful behaviour. She was a student too. After the exam, she got some time to do tuition for the kids.
She took me to her friend's house. I felt really difficult for their conservation. Chittagong and Cox's Bazar has different language accents, which is difficult or impossible to understand in the other part of Bangladesh. In this house, they gave me local fruits that were very delicious. I told them I couldn't understand their language, so they started speaking in front of me on some topic which they might not want me to know. I actually understood some of it and guessed the rest of the conversation. No, I didn't reveal those to anybody.
From this house tutor, I have learned how to tell a story. She tells every single detail in a way that everybody will stop doing their work and listen to her. I was amazed. Later, when I used to describe storied in college, my classmates said, we like how you tell us the story. All credit goes to my cousin's teacher, whom I never met again.
Thursday, August 3, 2023
They are different.
Speaking less and can't speak is not the same.
Don't know how to bring logic to an argument and decided not to argue are not the same.
People who don't want to talk with you and who can't find words to communicate with you are not the same.
People who are in trouble and who use trouble as an excuse are not the same.
Though we constantly mix up with these kinds of people.
Wednesday, August 2, 2023
The history of hunting will always glorify the hunters.
Work with a peace of mind
I prefer to work in a peaceful environment without feeling rushed, stressed, lazy, or overly relaxed. It's important to me to maintain a pace that allows me to complete tasks on time without feeling exhausted or pressured. I enjoy taking my time to savour each moment.
Thanks to this approach, I've been able to complete most of my work on time without experiencing much stress. However, sometimes I've struggled to finish everything due to time constraints. I'm always looking for ways to improve myself and become more efficient.
Recently, I've started to feel overwhelmed and stressed. I have faith that everything will work out, and I'm determined to handle any challenges that come my way with grace and dignity.
Despite my relaxed demeanour, I work hard to complete my tasks on time. People often don't realize how much effort I put in until I'm no longer around to do it.
Monday, July 31, 2023
I liked it's melody
Duncan Laurence - Arcade (Loving You Is A Losing Game) feat. FLETCHER
Lyrics
… A broken heart is all that's left
I'm still fixing all the cracks
Lost a couple of pieces when
I carried it, carried it, carried it home
… I'm afraid of all I am
My mind feels like a foreign land
Silence ringing inside my head
Please carry me, carry me, carry me home
… I've spent all of the love I saved
We were always a losing game
Small town boy in a big arcade
I got addicted to a losing game
… Oh
Oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
… Do you love me, love me not?
Giving pieces from my heart
Tomorrow's coming and has gone
Still I carried, I carried, I carried on
… Oh
Oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
… Oh
Oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
… I don't need your games, game over
… Get me off this rollercoaster
… Oh
Oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
… Oh
Oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
Source: Musixmatch
Sunday, July 30, 2023
Saturday, July 29, 2023
A beautiful Bangla song
Lyrics:
Baka chokhe bolona
kotha bolo chokhe chokh rekhe
moner chehara dekhte daona
baka chokhe bolona (2) ||
Chokh holo shei aayna
jaake faka na pathano jaena (2)
ki je ashol ki je nokol
bujhbo tomar chokh bedhe ||
Kichudin theke gechi kaache
koto shukhe mon dhore ache
shrititar monimala hoye
e jibone jani jabe roye
Chao jodi shopi oboshan
ami purbona kono obhiman
jabo ami chole
shob kichu bhule (2)
konoi badhon na rekhe ||
Friday, July 28, 2023
Choose your battle wisely
Thursday, July 27, 2023
Biography 184: My first tour to Cox's Bazar (The road)
When I was in grade 8 or 9, my youngest uncle (Maternal) used to work in Bandorban Rubber Garden as a manager. The owner of the rubber garden was Sohel Rana (Masud Parvej), a prominent actor in Bangladesh. My uncle had a fruit garden too of his own. His family used to live in Cox's Bazar because of his kids' education, and he had a shop in a mall.
My uncle knew he lived near a big travel spot. So, he always tries to take any of his nieces or nephews with him whenever he comes to Dhaka or Faridpur and shows them the beach of the Bay of Bangle.
One day my turn came. Because my annual school exam was finished. My uncle just asked once. And I happily agree to go with him. My other cousin-brother Ranku Bhai (May Allah keep him in peace) visited our house then, and he joined us.
In those days, there was no direct bus service from Dhaka to Cox's Bazar. My uncle took us to the bus terminal at Arambag (For Cox's Bazar and Chittagong buses).
The bus took us directly to Chittagong, and then we changed to another bus to Cox's Bazaar. We started very early in the morning. When we reached the bus stoppage by rickshaw, a man joined us. Ranku bro said it is his friend and will go with us too. The individuals were totally ready for the journey. Clearly, they knew about it before, but not me or my uncle.
My uncle agreed to take him too to his house. In those days, there were no mobile or cell phone systems. People really used land phones on the road. So, my aunt (My uncle's wife) had no clue that 3 extra people would go to their house to live for a couple of days.
Before reaching Chittagong, we stopped at a roadside restaurant to take our lunch. These restaurants are built for highway travellers. Their food was good. Washroom was clean. Then we start our journey again.
Here I have to mention something. I am not a bus person. In my childhood, I even couldn't ride in a car. When it started moving, I used to begin vomiting. After growing up, I have more control over this problem. Now a day, I just stay relaxed and head up all the way. If I even try to read something or check my cell phone, I feel like throwing out everything.
I was in school and didn't have control like this time. It was a huge bus and a long journey. I felt terrible several times but somehow held it till Chittagong.
In Chittagong, we get down from the bus. It was afternoon. We took some rest and got on the next bus. By this time, my brother Ranku had bought some Champa Banana. He ate and gave us too. I tried one. It was good, probably local fruit.
Then the bus started moving. And I couldn't hold anymore. I throw out everything. Couldn't take my mouth to the window, though I sat beside the window, my uncle sat beside me. My brothers sat behind us. My uncle cleaned me up with a gamchha (Cotton towel). In those days, people didn't use to carry tissues. He told me to keep the window open always and keep my mouth near the window so that I won't get dirty again.
But his anger went to the Champa Banana, indirectly to my brother. They started fighting. My uncle asked why he gave a banana to me. I didn't have this problem after lunch or snacks but after taking the banana. My brother said it's not the banana; it's the poor bus. Smelling like gasoline. I tried to stop my uncle, and my brother's friend tried to stop my brother. Both of us failed. No matter how many times I said, it's my problem. No one listened.
I threw out two more times, but I became an expert by that time. I used the window to clear my stomach, and no one got dirty.
We got down before we reached the main Cox's Bazar beach area. There was a small market by the highway, and my uncle lived nearby village.
When we reached my uncle's home in the evening. By that time, fighting was stopped, not over. Both of them (Uncle and brother) stayed silent for the rest of the tour.
Wednesday, July 26, 2023
Interesting changes around me
Before I entered in teenage, I found, males from all age groups, races, professions, places (Office, street, mall, etc.), social statuses, relations (Unknown, professor, colleague, etc.), physical features, financial status showed interest in me for different reasons. I am not saying all males did; I am saying males who showed interest somehow, were from different statuses.
Then at some age, I started feeling pain in my body. I became slower and started taking rest in between work. I started gaining weight. When I became plus size, I found something different happening around me. Mostly Black people are showing interest. Probably Black people like bigger bums and breasts.
I continue gaining extra weight. Now a day, big and overweight people are showing more interest than any other. Maybe they found someone similar to them.
Life is interesting. Even just watching my situation.
Maybe someday only aged people will show interest in me. ;)
Tuesday, July 25, 2023
Unstoppable
Each day is unique and unpredictable. There are times when unexpected events occur and you feel shattered into countless pieces. In those moments, I listen to a particular song that uplifts me.
I heard it from somewhere when my tears were unstoppable. But then it cheered me up and made me strong enough to smile at my situation. Thank you Sia.
Friday, July 21, 2023
Thursday, July 20, 2023
RT Train in Toronto
Wednesday, July 19, 2023
Biography 183: Our friend Emran
Emran sitting with a guitar in the Chittagong railway station waiting room. |
Emran was my friend from the Geography & Environment Department at the University of Dhaka. He was from Sherpur, Bangladesh. We had a common friend, so we went on some tours together in groups besides our regular field trips, like a trip to "Sonar Gaon."
We couldn't make some trips too. One day, Emran and his friend were supposed to meet us in front of Shishu Park. I had given the time 5.30pm. I waited there till 5.31pm, then left. I was like, if anyone came 1 minute late, that person would miss the meeting. On that day, Emran became very upset. He said, couldn't you wait 10 more minutes. I replied, why didn't you come 10 minutes early? Emran never fought with me for more than 2 seconds, so he stopped arguing.
One day in the class, I found him quite angry with a friend; Emran raised his voice and said, "Are bata, toke bollam na bata, oita bata, dhorbi bata, dekhosh na bata....." I laughed out loud. Why so many Bata in the sentence?
When all were planning our field trips in the department, I suggested going to India. I knew my family would not take me abroad to travel, and I couldn't go alone. I also heard our senior batches visited India, so I insisted. But no one was listening to me. Emran became irritated and said, "If you go with me, I will take you to travel to India." His friends stopped him and said, don't make this kind of comment. It was OK for me. By that time, I knew him very well. I knew, without meaning anything, he just made jokes, so I didn't care what he said. And no one made any field trip to India during our course,
Later, I visited India twice in two different places, at my own cost.
On our Mymensingh trip, Emran helped our friends who became sick by calling doctors and taking care of them.
When Saba faced an incident in the department, Emran was the first to protest.
On the Cox's Bazar trip, I came last to the hotel from the station, and all the people had already taken their rooms. Emran took us to our room. It was a broken and dark room. I told him, I am not going to stay here. He said, can't you adjust a bit. Sumi was ready to adjust, but I told him clearly, No. I will remain in the corridor until you give me a good room. He left, took me upstairs within 5 minutes, and gave us a clean, renovated big room.
On the way to Dhaka, we halt some hours at the Chottogram train station. Emran requested me to stay with everyone's luggage, and the boys will go out to see the city. I didn't plan to go out, but I immediately said, no way, I will go out too. Then, I went out with a group and visited some places.
During University life, we (I and Emran) worked many times in groups. The first year, we were in the same survey group. At the end of the Master's class, we conducted a survey again in Bagerhat.
After leaving the University, we didn't have much contact. But he managed to come to my marriage ceremony. When a significant incident happened in the ceremony, he came to me and told me, no worries, the groom's friend didn't like the food, that's why they left it, but now again sit down with the new round of food. One of the groom's friends was my Hall friend. So, no worries, I will handle it, and everything will be fine. He understood as a bride, I was worried about the situation and couldn't go outside and fix the problem. So he came to comfort me.
Then, I met with him at Chaity's marriage ceremony. He came with his wife, who was six months pregnant.
When I was getting ready to migrate to Canada, I needed money, so I wanted to sell my apartment. Emran tried to find a client. He had shown the flat to some people, too, but didn't succeed. I couldn't wait; I needed the money in a short time, so I sold it to an employee of the builder company.
Our communication was then only online. Without saying anything, I could see what my friends were doing on the FB page. When I wrote about him, he checked my blogs and corrected me where needed.
He was our go-to person. Anyone who faced trouble always contacted him, and he tried his best to solve it. For example, all Iftar parties get together, and he arranges money for those in trouble. He knew how to cheer up a person or a group and enjoy every moment.
For example, when I said I didn't have money to go to Bangladesh, He said, don't worry, just decide, and we will arrange money for you. I knew he didn't mean it, but he always encouraged everyone.
Now, it will be challenging to stay together with everyone because Emran was one of the big reasons that everyone stayed together. I wish and pray for him, Jannat.